The Mail Box

[Domeng Su-gat]

i hope you'll be my light in the darkest hour of my life.

[archer_dude]

For you....

 

I ran into a friend of yours the other day

And I asked her how you've been

She said my girl is fine; just bought a house, got a job, real good man

I told her I was glad for you; that's wonderful

But does she ever ask `bout me?

She said she's happy with her life right now

Let her go, let her be

And I told myself I would, but something in my heart just would not let you go

I just wanna know

 

What if we were wrong about each other?

What if you were really made for me?

What if we was `sposed to be together?

Would that not mean anything?

What if that was `sposed to be my house that you go home to every day?

How can you be sure that things are better?

If you can't be sure your heart is still here with me

Still wanting me

 

Your friend asked me if there was someone special in my life that I was seeing

I told her there was no one in particular

There's just I, myself, and me

I told her that I dream of you quite often

She just cut her eyes at me

She said you got a home, you're very happy

So just stop your meddling

I told her that I won't

I said that THINGS was cool, but I guess I was wrong

I still can't move on

 

 

Now that could be my car

That could be my house

That could be my baby boy that you're nursing

That could be the trash that I always take out

That could be the chair that I love to CHILL in

That could be my food on the table at the end of the day

Hugs and the kisses, all the love we make

What the hell do you expect me to say?

What if it's really `sposed to be this way?

What if you're really `sposed to be with me?

 

 

yes... I still ask these questions to myself eventhough it's been a long time...it's really hard if you keep a story hanging and just leave it there without an end...

[forbidden]

For you....

 

I ran into a friend of yours the other day

And I asked her how you've been

She said my girl is fine; just bought a house, got a job, real good man

I told her I was glad for you; that's wonderful

But does she ever ask `bout me?

She said she's happy with her life right now

Let her go, let her be

And I told myself I would, but something in my heart just would not let you go

I just wanna know

 

What if we were wrong about each other?

What if you were really made for me?

What if we was `sposed to be together?

Would that not mean anything?

What if that was `sposed to be my house that you go home to every day?

How can you be sure that things are better?

If you can't be sure your heart is still here with me

Still wanting me

 

Your friend asked me if there was someone special in my life that I was seeing

I told her there was no one in particular

There's just I, myself, and me

I told her that I dream of you quite often

She just cut her eyes at me

She said you got a home, you're very happy

So just stop your meddling

I told her that I won't

I said that THINGS was cool, but I guess I was wrong

I still can't move on

 

 

Now that could be my car

That could be my house

That could be my baby boy that you're nursing

That could be the trash that I always take out

That could be the chair that I love to CHILL in

That could be my food on the table at the end of the day

Hugs and the kisses, all the love we make

What the hell do you expect me to say?

What if it's really `sposed to be this way?

What if you're really `sposed to be with me?

 

 

yes... I still ask these questions to myself eventhough it's been a long time...it's really hard if you keep a story hanging and just leave it there without an end...

Archer, bro...

 

life's a bitch, ain't it? Anyway, I hope you resolve this issue within yourself - that's where the about 90% of the answer lies, I've come to know. Of course, you can never control all the variables... but feelings, they can be your prison or your liberation, depending on which ones you focus on.

 

Peace bro!

[archer_dude]

Archer, bro...

 

life's a bitch, ain't it? Anyway, I hope you resolve this issue within yourself - that's where the about 90% of the answer lies, I've come to know. Of course, you can never control all the variables... but feelings, they can be your prison or your liberation, depending on which ones you focus on.

 

Peace bro!

I've accepted my fate...I guess that's how the story ends...

[forbidden]

im not what u think i am...

i did not betray u in any way

if u think i did, im sory....

but please believe that

i did not lie about it not being given

because even i was made to believe that it was....

im not denying anything when u asked

about it because i know that i was given...

i was not able to give it personally

how can i give it personally when for a fact

i always come home at midnight or past midnight

then i leave the house before 10 in the morning

how willl i be able to hand it personally

i promised to give it personally but i

did not have the time.... i seldom go home...

even i don't have the time for myself.....

u think im making up excuses....

i tell u now i did not hand it personally

when u ask me if i had given it on the said day

when i told u i did it was becuase i really

thought that it was given....

if u believe him that i was able to hand it personally

to him more than u believe that i was not able to hand it

to him... then so be it....

but please erase the thought u had that i used something

that isn't mine and did not tell u about it....

because i will never do it....

its just hurts to think that u could think of the worst

in me well in fact i know u know everything about me....

i may be needing that.... but im not the person

who will use a personal property of someone

without asking their permission....

i know u know that fact because i don't like it

to be happening to me.....

but since u don't believe.... i'll let it stay that way

i can't bring back the past stupid bad action

but at least i have memories of the good ones....

thank u for that....

u don't want anything to do with me already.......

i know yr decision is final so

this will be the last......

lustful... intense ang posts mo you can really see the change from anger to relative calm

 

wow... emotions are really like waves...

 

I hope this has been resolved

 

peace!

[forbidden]

I've accepted my fate...I guess that's how the story ends...

and many times, accepting it can be painful - tranquility to you, bro!

 

by the way (and at the risk of moving off topic) - your signature... what does it mean? I thought at first it was the lyrics to hindi sad diamonds on the Moulin Rouge soundtrack, but I'm beginning to suspect its from that indian singer whose video MTV was showing a few years back.

 

you can just PM me the explanation in the interest of maintaining thread integrity

[Lipstick]

L,

 

Hi, just a quickie to advice you of my change of mobile number. I've reverted back to my old one because not a lot of people know it except for close friends and family. Again, my best wishes go to you and him. I know what a good couple you'll make and he a good father image to

your girls. I will always treasure the wonderful moments we shared together. I suppose some things were not meant to be but i'm glad for the opportunity to have known you. You are always in my heart.

 

C

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C,

 

Thanks for the notification, but isn't that old number the number the

entire world knows? I am the woman who reads in between the lines too much so pardon me when I ask if I am reading this email correctly, my best friend is saying good bye. Let me thank you then for everything. And like you, I always carry you in my heart.

 

Just as a rejoinder, don't believe everything you hear. After all that we've been through, I wish you would ask me straight and listen to me instead. Pity, I thought I was making progress taking the tiniest baby steps and making my way back to you, I guess not.

 

I wish you the very best as well, and I know you will be the best

partner a woman can ever have. I can only envy that woman in silence.

 

Things happen for a reason, and while we may not know it yet they happen in our best interest. Unlike you, I know how "we" were meant to be. Written in the stars, engraved in the earth and infused in the air. Hopefully you will realize that too someday.

 

L

[ciskokidd]

HUH?

Edited January 23, 2004 by ciskokidd

[Lipstick]

HUH?

Are you uncertain what this thread is all about? Suggest you read the first post on the first page. <_<

[irshes]

I never realized I affect you that way.

I care about you. I never faked it. But right now what you ask of me is too much, a lot more than what I can give.

You are a good person. But I only see you as a friend.

I have been nothing but honest with you from the start. The present is all I can offer.

I am sorry if I was a disappointment. But to lie about how I feel (or in this case, about what I don't feel) is not something I can't do.

 

T.

[irshes]

Tazmanic,

 

You brought me to this forum. Look at what you did to me, you Chem Eng'g freak!

 

You told me we should've met when we were both still in U.P. We could've hung out a lot. Played hooky and gone to SM North. Had Beef with "ek" at that Thai Canteen, BBQ at Beach House.. Mang Jimmy's, Trellis... Fishballs, kwek kwek and that cheese turon I love so much from CASAA. Spend afternoons at the lagoon. Watched the Lantern parade together. Chased those ass-baring frat boys (I still have the raw footages!). Crawled home drunk from Sunken. Had alcohol-induced hair cuts at Krus na Ligas. Enjoyed each other's company, to our hearts' content.

 

But no, ang tanda mo na kasi.. graduate ka na, freshie pa lang ako

 

I think what happened is better. See what we ended up as? Two perverts, now at the opposite sides of the city

 

Lovers come and go. Friends could be forever

 

You are one hell of a person, and I love you to bits.

 

Kisses,

Irshes

[sniper69]

baba,

 

dont know what's happening..

 

i guess im the one who's falling..

 

1<2

[irshes]

They shouldn't. Yet they do.

Your words wound me so.

 

T.

[diskette]

what do you want from me? we've been apart 4 long years and

you want to see me again. why? please stop calling. i don't

know what to say to you. i don't know what is happening in

your life now. our common friends think you are happy

with your model-girlfriend. you tell me you're not. i don't know

what to believe. all i know is, i'm over you. i've moved on.

the other night, you said you've never stopped loving me.

you said, you still love me very much. WHY?

 

i don't want to start over. i'm in love with someone else now.

please don't make me say that to you. i don't want to hurt

your feelings.

[Switlass]

Dear,

 

Something funny happened today. Remember how we used to marvel at how magical our way of meeting was? How we had no connection, except for that one special occasion..we both knew that things would have been different had your dog been bitchy that night.. Or had you not seen your friend.. Remember how you felt really lucky and blessed that you were where you were the night we met?

 

Well today I saw an old friend. We chatted for awhile. He told me about this guy he wants to introduce to me, only he's giving him time to 'heal'. You see, this guy recently broke up with his girlfriend, and though it's been awhile, he's still not ok.

 

I asked them why they broke up. I even asked if there was a third party involved. My friend said no. She was too young he said, and he knew it was only a matter of time before she left. I was quiet. He further added that his friend really loved the girl, and now he even feels the need to run away becuase everything is shouting her name. I was thinking..Bullshit. If he loved the girl, he wouldn't have let her go.

 

Oh well I said. Life.

 

He said we would be perfect for each other, and he feels somehow, he should intervene and arrange for something, just in case the stars haven't decided if we should meet. And then he said.. "Donna Jean B. -----"

He was beaming, saying it sounded great...

 

And I wanted to die right then and there.

 

But i didn't.

 

You see, I knwo that we still hav one more chance of meeting again. But on the day OUR friend decides that we should meet, I will be far away.

 

No Mercy my love. I didn't get any.

 

Dee

[diskette]

you called again using a different number. how clever!

how many of your numbers have i blocked? i've lost count.

i would have appreciated your persistence a long time ago.

but now.....

 

and why do you employ your friends to contact me and

convince me to give you another chance?

 

please leave me in peace. i don't want to have to go

through another heartache with you.

 

i loved you then. but life is now, and it's without you.

[irshes]

The house is quiet. Everyone's in bed. I staggered in. Showered in aquarium light. Fumbled with my keys. Five minutes.

 

Didn't wait to get to my room. Unclasped the unwanted bracelet. Stripped to the skin. Left a trail of clothes - lipstick, perfume, sweat and alcohol. Walked buck naked across the living room. Not a soul stirred from their slumber. Not knowing how I suffer.

 

Dragged myself to the bathroom. Cold, cruel water. Like your kisses, it awakened my senses. The only different is that latter set me on fire.

 

"I am in it, but the bed is empty."

 

How I miss you, my love. Has it been only 3 months? It feels like a million years.

 

Still, I live.

 

Lord, I am drunk.

 

T.

[RoadPizza]

C,

 

I guess you're feeling smug right now. It's so easy for you to lie, isn't it?

 

Hopefully, it will make you happy. . . just don't count on it happening.

 

Goodbye.

 

F

[archer_dude]

It's been a long night for me...as usual. Yet the thought of what happened between us bumped into my mind once again, even though I'm all worn out and tired...

 

I ask myself why? can't find the answer...Coz I thought I had erased everything in my mind...but I guess no. Most of the time, unconsciously the thought still lingers...

 

Maybe because we left an "unfinished business". Now everytime I think about what happened I ask myself why I did it. I should've left you alone in your own world and me minding mine as well...It could've been better that way for the both of us. But then again feeling that kind of happiness deep inside is worth all the pain and the trouble that I've come acrossed. Like what they say things happen for a reason, but in our case our paths crossed all of a sudden without any reason at all...

 

I grabbed the opportunity not knowing what I'm going into. Yet my decision is firm as you showed all the signs that we are going to have a fairy tale ending. I had created a very beautiful scene in my mind for the two of us, I was just waiting for you to turn it into reality. But all of a sudden in the middle of things you left me hanging...I had no idea that you'd go the other way around...

 

So I gave up. I went away. I thought it was just not meant to be... but you're so unfair you could've given me even just an idea as to why you did that and as to why your decision turned out to be that way...But no you didn't care about my feelings.

 

After God knows how long, after I had forgotten everything that happend, after being able to find my way to my own little world and after gathering enough strenght to move on...

 

A friend of mine told me he bumped into you and you said to him you've been looking for me after all those years...Why? why just now? When everything has been put into place for me. And most especially when everything's too late.

 

Too late.

 

 

What if we were wrong about each other?

What if you were really made for me?

What if we was `sposed to be together?

Would that not mean anything?

What if that was `sposed to be my house that you go home to every day?

How can you be sure that things are better?

If you can't be sure your heart is still here with me

Still wanting me

 

 

Now that could be my car

That could be my house

That could be my baby boy that you're nursing

That could be the trash that I always take out

That could be the chair that I love to chill in

That could be my food on the table at the end of the day

Hugs and the kisses, all the love we make

What the hell do you expect me to say?

What if it's really `sposed to be this way?

What if you're really `sposed to be with me?

Edited January 24, 2004 by archer_dude

[silentrage]

You almost ruined my life. But I guess I'm partly to blame too, for allowing you to do so. I have found my peace now and I've began to realize, maybe, just maybe, you were destiny's way of showing me that heaven and hell are not places we'd go to in the afterlife. They are places we live in now, created by the decisions and the choices we make.

 

I hope you make your own heaven. It's not easy to live in another hell, after the one we've just been through.

[sweetpsyche]

dear

 

will it hurt you if i say.... its too late now? :cry:

 

justme

 

sorry.

Edited January 25, 2004 by sweetpsyche

[JohnCastle]

The worst thing about realizing my mistakes is that it maybe too late to rectify them. I just wished that before things started to worsen, I should have watched my actions and did the right things. But then again, it's only when I lost that touch and I lost the grip that I knew I was gone for the dogs to chew on, the horses to kick and the monkeys to spit upon.

 

Wishing you the happiness that you have been looking for and never found in me. Though we may have moved on our own ways, and though I have shown I have become cold, deep inside you're still the only one. Let that pain and hurt remain inside me to constantly remind me where I have gone wrong......

Edited January 26, 2004 by JohnCastle

[irshes]

Everybody's got somethin'

They had to leave behind

One regret from yesterday

That just seems to grow with time

 

There's no use lookin' back or wonderin'

How it could be now or might have been

Oh this I know but still I can't find ways

To let you go

 

I never had a dream come true

Till the day that I found you

Even though I pretend that I've moved on

You'll always be my baby

I never found the words to say

You're the one I think about each day

And I know no matter

Where life takes me to

A part of me will always be with you.

 

Somewhere in my memory

I've lost all sense of time

And tomorrow can never be

'Cuz yesterday is all that fills my mind

There's no use lookin' back or wonderin'

How it should be now or might have been

Oh this I know but still I can't find ways

to let you go

 

I never had a dream come true

Till the day that I found you

Even though I pretend that I've moved on

You'll always be my baby

I never found the words to say

You're the one I think about each day

And I know no matter

Where life takes me to

A part of me will always be with you.

 

You'll always be the dream

That fills my head,

Yes you will, say you will, you know you will

Oh baby

You'll always be the one I know

I'll never forget

There's no use lookin' back or wonderin'

B'cuz love is a strange and funny thing

No matter how I try and try

I just can't say goodbye

 

I was going through my things last night. I saw a letter from you dated January 26. A letter written four years ago.

 

Pretty face. Ticking bombs and dynamite. Guessing games and sweet dreams.

 

You never liked seeing me sad, my love.

 

Today, I smile for you.

 

T.

[Alex_Corvis]

Butterflies in my stomach

What will happen i do not know

Butterflies in my stomach

deym

[Alex_Corvis]

I open my eyes while dreaming

and my vision of you starts fading

I pray that you woudn't stop believing,

Wait up, coz my horizons and changing.