The Mail Box

[LoveSpell]

You broke my heart,

you shattered my pride,

you killed my soul,

you lost my hope,

I can't stop my tears,

I can't ever sleep,

I can't ever eat,

I wait for you to come back,

Back into my life,

I only hope and dream,

I hope you know I'll wait for you forever,

All I have are precious memories,

memories I can't abide,

the feelings I still have for you,

I just can't seem to hide,

you were my first love,

you said we'd last forever,

but I guess forever is short,

and now I guess for never,

I hope you know that I'm always here for you,

always waiting with open arms,

and forever I'll love you...

[G T]

good day my dearest.hope things are getting better for you.i miss you.

[Mobius Stripper]

Dear Ate,

 

I just realized, it wasn't pride that upset me. It was what everyone tried to make me believe, including myself. Maybe it was because the burden of knowledge & the undue guilt of, therefore, collaborating with the covers-up of powers that be through my helpless silence is a form of acquiescence.

 

I also cannot regret my knowledge & awareness for which I'll remain culpable if I simply try to forget. I now don't want to & I can't. Those who fail to learn the lessons of history are always doomed to repeat them. And I'm not one to be kicked by the same mule on the same spot.

 

I realized I'm upset because my services have been employed by people who were eloquent in words of nobility & virtue. They gave me free hand to exercise what they perceived as my talents to pursue the highest & greatest good. That I did & don't regret.

 

It isn't regret for my involvement & my knowledge & awareness. It is nota lamentation of time & efforts wasted. It is all but a natural consequence of pain & disappointment upon I must not lose myself or I will wither in despair & seek the shallow escapes that gave me fleeting respites from my pain.

 

That is what precisely the enemy wants me to do, kick myself, silence myself, shut myself off from the world, escape from the pain. I've been raised as a good sport by my mentors at home, school, work & leisure. The game & season is never over until it is over. There are times-out, practice periods, a regimented discipline & study that a good sport must imbibe. That I shall do. Kick myself & lose by default, I shall not.

 

I will have patience for God is not done with me yet & the secret wager between me & God will continue. This is one wager I shall strive to win, even if I know I'll lose because it isn't the winning that is important but the playing the very game itself.

 

Now I feel much much better.

 

Your brother, the Awakened Dreamer.

[simon b]

art, like life, is not always pretty

 

i wouldnt want an all pretty world

that would be boring...

 

so stay, please

[LoveSpell]

I sit and wander everyday

Whether you are going to be back in my arms

Once more...

I began to finally realize

You are gone

Gone from me, my heart, and my soul

I loved you with everything and more.

What did you have to go without letting me say

Goodbye

[chiquezee]

Hey... I'm having a difficult time juggling my emotions right now. For the most part, I don't want to hurt anybody. But I also think its about time I start giving myself a chance to just be what I want to be, do what I want to do, and be unmindful of how it will affect others, you, in particular. I have always been selfless, regardless of why and to whom. It can be tiring. And although the urge to be selfish is dangling in front of me, nudging my heart, I instinctively stop and contemplate. I am confusing myself and the fact that I am losing control over the situation is driving me insane. I cannot allow myself to break down and falter. I just want to do what I want. I dont want others hurt. I just wish I can go on and be what I want, even momentarily, and for you not to feel anything about it. Thats all I ask. Its not about you, anyway. Its all about me. For once, can it be about me? I wish I can tell you face to face... but while I am still struggling against what I want to do and what I should not do, I'll keep you in mind. There may be a chance though, that I'll just fly like I want to, without asking you if I can. I hope you will understand and just dismiss it as an instinctive desire to try flying. I'll be gliding back to you anyway.

[chiquezee]

dear,

 

i find it thrilling, scary, and oh so intriguing. I dont even want to think whenever we talk. I know myself. I rationalize too much and I am so damn sure I'll realize its wrong before I even taste how wrong it can be... thing is, I want to and you know that. its the sensibility that you like in me that is making me think twice. But I so dont want to think!!! Urgh!

[wildnutzz]

i know you'd check this thread and that you'd be able to read this.

you see, i've been longing for your undivided attention for a couple of days now.

i really don't know why you can't see that... despite the fact that you say you're soooo sensitive.

 

i always look forward to the long talks over the phone... be it in the office or at home...

time spent drinking and bonding at nights... you know, getting drunk and fooling around.

 

*sigh* i want a million hugs and kisses... and i want them real soon..

 

i miss you. :cry:

[willow_boy]

I,

 

You got it coming, didn't you? You deserve what happened to you because you're such a possessive and controlling jerk anyway! You simply left her with no choice.

 

BTW, don't bother to let us in on your activities. We don't care. Continue doing what you're doing to your heart's delight and I'm sure it will bring you your ultimate demise.

 

GAGO!!

Edited September 26, 2006 by willow_boy

[seikokinetic]

Lord,

 

Bakit ang dami pong sinungaling?

[Guest]

the sins of my past haunt me to this day. will i ever experience forgiveness for this transgressions? i learned my lesson from it and am trying to move forward slowly but somehow it keeps pulling me back down.

[wildnutzz]

you definitely made it up last night....

i really appreciate it.

 

thank God He sent you to me..

[Grimace]

Lendell

 

Maybe somewhere there's a box full of replacement parts to all the tenderness we've broken or let rust away.

 

I.

Edited September 27, 2006 by uchisy

[Barenaked-NoMre]

Whatever it is that's getting you hot and bothered ... dont pin them on me or use me as the object of your angst.

 

You're lucky with how things have worked out for you.

 

Not all are as lucky or fortunate.

 

Sometimes you need to step back a bit ... maybe put yourself in the other person's shoes.

 

You're affected TOO much ... sometimes it's not even necessary.

 

Be cool!

[missmanners]

sir,

 

i am afraid to tell you that you're an imbecile. things will never get done because your mouth moves faster than your brain can digest. you seem to forget that you had to climb rung after rung to get to where you are. i suggest you learn to look down from time to time and maybe help who can be helped to move closer to your lofty position. seem to have a lot of air up there. probably getting to your head?

 

i laugh inwardly everytime i have to face you. i took on this role only because it got my foot in the door. i fully intend to use this opportunity for my own gains. five years from now, you will try your best to make me forget these past few days. and i will finally be able to laugh loudly. and, fingers crossed, in your face.

 

in the meantime, i have to suffer silently... albeit, amusedly. that little episode today made my blood boil but proved only too clearly what a stupid man you really are.

 

sincerely,

me