The Mail Box

[iwalkalone]

Should I feel sorry if people like yourself hate my posts? Frankly...I don't give a damn. I really don't care what you all think of me....Just ignore me if you must....it really won't matter to me at all. Please leave me be.

[iwalkalone]

madilim na gabi,

Please stop it already you're getting on my nerves....I thought I made it clear to you already. I never had any feelings for you and I never will. Take that and go! .... If you still can't comprehend ... then godammit you need serious psychiatry!!!! ( please!! i don't wanna be rude, it's just that you make me wanna loathe you.....and believe me...i'm getting there! <_< )

[G T]

i hope you are feeling better today. if you need someone to atlk to and listen to you, im here.always.

take care and i miss you so much.

[black cat]

T,

 

Alam mo, iniisip ko na lang twing mangangati ako na email or itext ka? Na mas masaya ka na ngayon kaya hindi na kita dapat guluhin. Nakakalungkot pero yun naman talaga ang gusto ko umpisa pa lang na mapansin kita. Gusto ko na mapasaya ka. Honestly, na-frustrate ako na sa mga huling times na okey pa tayo, hindi na kse kita napapasaya.

 

Iniisip ko lagi ngayon.. sana sinabi mo na lang na ayaw mo na.. hindi yun dinaan mo pa sa mga "unanswered questions" tsaka mga "galit" na pinapamukha mo yun mga PAST mistakes ko. Mas lalo lang tuloy akong nasaktan. Twing maiisip ko yun mga harsh words sa email mo, naiiyak pa rin ako.

 

Pinagupit ko na ng maiksi ang hair ko.. pinaiba ko na din ang kulay.. pati style ng makeup ko, iba na rin.. dinelete ko na rin yun msn messenger ko.. dinelete ko na rin lahat ng handle mo sa ym list ko.. binago ko na rin yun password ko na pangalan mo. Ayaw ko na kseng maisip or maalala ka kaya gusto ko ng burahin lahat ng mga bagay nag-uugnay sa tin pero parang pang-asar, nakita pa kita kagabi.. naalala ko na naman tuloy lahat.. napaiyak mo na naman ako.

[Barenaked-NoMre]

Ate R,

 

Thanks for the invite to celebrate my bday with you guys at Pacita. That means SO much, if you ONLY knew.

 

I did arrange for Thanksgiving mass at Greenbelt for 5:45 pm tomorrow. Was planning to hear mass then possibly MEAT up with someone. Yet, am glad I'll be spending with my loved ones ... family. ;-)

 

A

[missmanners]

over a glass of wine at m last sunday afternoon, we talked about our lives... how just a few months ago we were in an industry we couldn't imagine ever leaving. and now here we are... you scrambling up a different corporate ladder completely... and myself unemployed, but not for long hopefully. i got the job offer i was hoping for... and it was all i ever hoped for really. but now that it's here, i don't know why i'm suddenly hesitant.

 

i guess it's hearing about the projects i left behind doing well now. all the plans i thought up in my head finally materializing without me... all the credit of course going to the ones i left behind instead of the one that broke her back over it. no matter. i'm still happy with my decision, like i said last sunday. i don't think i could ever go back and live with being a small fish in a big pond again... trying to prove to everyone i deserve to torture myself and play their dirty games.

 

i would rather be here, where i am now, deciding on job offers from companies i never would have thought of working for before... it's so much more calm here, where we both are actually. the only ones we have to please now are ourselves. and our souls aren't up for grabs in hell in order for us to do better. the norm of stress and extended work hours is apparently abnormal. the politicking and the backstabbing doesn't have to be the rule instead of an occupational hazard. sleeping well and having time for myself is my right instead of a privilege. isn't it so much better this way?

 

siiigh.

 

maybe the person i'm trying hard to convince isn't you. it's probably me.

[Dr_PepPeR]

I called you on a whim. Boy, was I ever surprised! You never tripped, you had that cute twang, and you never tripped. Yes, alright, maybe a twang is just cute but I found myself thoroughly enjoying our conversation. You have substance gurl, and believe me when I say that. I felt like I was talking to one of my old girl friends, I could just listen and talk with you for ages. When we meet next week, I will have no regrets if we just spend the time talking and looking at each other's eyes. Can't wait to meet you!

[iwalkalone]

Dear Manang'

Ano ka vah naman...50 yrs old ka na yata di ka parin po marunong magluto....hanep lagi na kong late sa f#&king job ko dahil sayoh!!! :cry: prito lang yata alam mo tsaka saing!!!....dyusmeh ang tamad tamad mo pah...aakyat ka lang sa hagdan...mga 15 mins ata bago ka makarating sa tuktok....may arthritis ka po ba Manang? :cry: .huhuhuhu! :cry: at bat ganyan mukha mo Manang?....para kang female version ni poppeye ...na pinalaklak ng samboteng datu puti! AAAAAAARGH!!!

tsaka bakit po ba lagi kang nasa labas...? hay dyusko....mahadera kang lola kah! :cry: talo mo pa po ako ah....di ka makalabas ng alang lipstick , lotion, pulbos at di ayos ang hair! :cry: ...manang.....manang...!!! nakaka stress ka!!!! :cry: :cry: :cry:

 

 

oist madilim na gabi....baka naman isipin mo ikaw parin si manang ha????!!!! grrrrr!

Edited September 1, 2006 by iwalkalone

[LostCommand]

General order number 18.

 

Mistakes were made. Words could have been better chosen. Some of the timing of the presentations were not perfect. Some of the stage cues were missed. We at times provided information unnecessarily, and so unwittingly inviting questions on ourselves. And, of course, our big-game targets shot back on heavy-caliber full-auto rifle fire, upsetting our aim - this is a war, not a safari; the "prey" are equally armed, and all the hunters are also the hunted.

 

But otherwise, especially with regard technical content, we were flawless.

 

The outlines of this master plan have now gelled in the bosses' mental vision, the economical concept of modularity accepted enthusiastically on the very first day. Only the details are actually still up for debate these following closing weeks.

 

We have achieved 80 percent; the Pareto principle applies this time.

 

Now for the next three weeks (including weekends and evenings, as usual) we set down the colorful ideas to plain paper, document insights into cold graphs, and convert inspiration into dry worksheets. Some of the magic may be lost, yes, in translating visions to ink. But the name of the game these next three weeks is now efficient staff work of the highest order;

 

So we put on a different mask, as always: "...all the world's a stage"

 

DF - you are learning, you are learning, though I still had to kick you under the table a few times. Do not talk too fast, especially given your accent.

CC - I've made up for your loss of face, and more.

ST - Thanks for that last minute save. I thought I had to invoke that dirty trick of damage control proceedings.

 

By now, as I write this, you folks and the rest of the team would all be back on the regional HQ, that steel and glass tower. Take this weekend off - Monday we go back to (yet another) grind.

 

As for the sole Pinoy in all this, he flies back tomorrow. Tonight he is off, barely masked, anonymous, hunting down some long lost friends, Females, preferably.

 

Get me drink, somebody,

 

LC

[chipmaker]

hey you...

 

thanks. i had a great time. let's do it again next month okay? i really hope that project summit pushes through. and yes, i'll take you there regardless if it's my nth time to disney already. hahaha.

 

a kiss for chelsea from her uncle... :*

 

take care.

 

sieg

[TNT Hsia]

Congratulations for being a good husband & father. I don't see many breadwinning men who'll prioritize & support their spouse's post-grad education before their own or bathe, dress & care for their baby like you do. I admire you for telling me that we aren't going to that lapdance place anymore (even if I wasn't asking you to, hahaha) because you've become a practicing Catholic again.

 

Sorry for the times I may have said hurtful things. Being single, not being qualified to be a parent, having my selfish desires to marry & have my own family while having to help raise you & your two siblings after your dad left & as your mom suffered from a terminal illness -- they were never valid excuses for some things I said & punishments I inflicted on you. At the end of the day, you were understanding & took all I said constructively.

 

Sorry for the times I may have set a bad example. The occasional rowdy parties, drinking & late nights, indecent materials I at times accidentally left lying carelessly around, racist jokes, even if I made it clear I was only fooling around... You & your siblings may have found them amusing & tis good it stayed as far as that. How embarrassed I'd be if you did the same & attributed it to me. *embarrassed chuckle*

 

T'was my greatest fear that I failed you: when you got booted out of school for academic & disciplinary causes; when you were kicked out even from the only high school your lolo could find to accept you. Those times made me cry because I blamed it on myself & shared that pain at awkward adolescent stage you went through. When you were of age you had a choice: join your dad in the US or stay with me. I advised you to choose what would be the best for your future & you picked right.

 

For a while, I thought you flew the nest too soon. You were in between jobs quite often, prone to depression, hating yourself even more than the world that you think gave you a raw deal in life... Like all men, you had to go through your personal fires to forge your character into what you are destined to become.

 

Although you had a rocky start, look at you now. Living the American materialist dream yet remaining a Filipino in heart & soul: looking after your siblings & helping provide for them when they are tight; taking a wetback into your home & treating her like family as we did our household help; your words & example being their guiding light. You've done many things I only dream of. You're mom up there is surely proud of you, even more than I for she delivered you!

 

Though in your heart you still hold me in awe for the things I've done & you perceive I am, I must say you are made of better stuff than me. That's for sure now. Please keep it up. Continue to exceed me, more importantly. exceed yourself.

 

Thanks for helping me conquer all fear of death & life by telling me this on your wedding day & when you were an expectant father: Thank you, Uncle for looking after mom & raising me the way you did. Because of you, I really want to be a good husband & daddy but more importantly, a good human being.

 

I know one day your children will say the same to you & who knows, surprise you with better words of thanks. Because of you, I can thank the Lord for giving me a life well lived & the signs of my breathe, my life & my time that there are better things ahead for me to do.

 

I love you!

Edited September 1, 2006 by TNT Hsia

[Dr_PepPeR]

Ms. K

 

Changed my mind. Lab talaga kita. I'd want to spend more time with you now that we're at this stage. For the first time I felt so comfortable with you at the party.

 

Ms. K the other

 

I see you around and we just seem to ignore each other. But I see you and take a second look hoping to find out what you're up to. I guess you're OK. I miss you girl, but you seem to be a bit uhmm busy. Just so nice to see you in a good mood more often.

 

Ms. K the third

 

I had so much fun talking to you. Can't wait to meet you.

 

Ms. R

 

Sorry for being bitchy last night. I'm not hiding anything from you. It's that womens-way-of-thinking syndrome again. You imagine all sorts of reasons for a very simple act.

 

Ms. R the other

 

I'll see you again and sooner than you think.

[iwalkalone]

Thank you....bawal magka sakit! di makakayanan ni iwalkalone

[naked_angel]

for most people a few words can change everything...

 

 

but not me.

 

 

sorry is not one of them

 

 

and neither is i love you

[BlackWizard]

My dearest N,

 

Knowing you was one of the best days in my life... You make me smile when my work gets in to my nerves. You make me laugh when you do that baby talk and most of all you make me happy just by talking with me...

 

(Your promise of baking a C for me is one of the things I look forward to in my dull life)

 

Yours truly...

R.

 

PS: :*

Edited September 3, 2006 by BlackWizard