Barenaked-NoMre Posted November 18, 2005 Share Posted November 18, 2005 JAL, You know me SO well. Thanks for your call. It means a lot just hearing your voice ... and asking me the right questions. Just in the few minutes ... you got me ... thinking, feeling. Yet, I couldnt really tell you what's going on. Too much has happened ... you're far and busy. I will try to remember what you told me. Be well, bestfriend. A Quote Link to comment
Barenaked-NoMre Posted November 18, 2005 Share Posted November 18, 2005 BM, Shocking ... getting a call from you that you're in Manila. It's been 3 years since I last saw you. Sorry, but I cant do as you asked/requested/want. You're married now ... with a kid. Yes, I can meet up with you again ... just to catch up on what's happening in each other's lives. Nothing more, nothing less. Hope you will respect that. A Quote Link to comment
creamrose Posted November 19, 2005 Share Posted November 19, 2005 I always get this little pinch in my heartWhenever I hear Christmas songs being playedI wonder, could it beBecause it reminds meOf the other Christmases? Melancholic, that's what I am now.It's that time of the year again. Quote Link to comment
Wyld Posted November 19, 2005 Share Posted November 19, 2005 When I began feeling the cold winds of winter ... I began to feel fear in my heart. I know how much cold and dreary weather gets me down... I know how the blues strike me each time the weather changes from warm to cold. I hope somehow, things are not as bad for me this winter as they were for me last year. Perhaps now that I have become a better and stronger person I will be better able to handle the cold that settles not only in my bones but in my heart and my soul as well. I only ask that you hold my hand and bear with me through this. As I have said so many times before, I am the girl that the sun always kisses ... in time, the heat of the sun will warm my cheeks once again. The sun will kiss me again. In time. Quote Link to comment
Apollo Posted November 20, 2005 Share Posted November 20, 2005 I'm kind of a bashful person, and I need a littlehelp in what I want to do,<br>I want to call you onthe phone, and let you know I want you with meeverywhere I go.<br>I want to say I love you, and maybe oneday, it will come to be.<br>I'll get to hold you in myarms, and have you make sweet love to me.<br>I want totell you I'll build a house for you and me, and maybeour kids someday.<br>I hope you'll want this too,because I want to give you joy to keep the cloudsaway.<br>But like I said, I'm a bashful person, and I reallydon't know what to do.<br>So that's why I wish that Ihad just a litle sign of help fromyou.<br>copyrighted by Apollo Quote Link to comment
KristinLavransdatr Posted November 20, 2005 Share Posted November 20, 2005 For all of us who still believe in the unbelievable.And for those who are still hopeful to find the right one here, of all places... SEARCH ENGINE Cliche city: Hometo a monopoly of very bad dates. We've netted everythingfrom the outcaststo the outright evil;a lurking syndicateof losers andeven a tarantulain a strapless bra.Held helplesslyin a holdingpattern for too long,we know how easyit is to becomejust anotherstatistic, anothernumb numberthat won't add up.Problem is,we're all justbeta versionsof the alpha male, (or female)obsolete by design,obsolete in numbers,not knowing whetherto hunt or to hide.So we're leftto scream behindshimmering screens,weakly giving in tothe blindness of thisfresh fiber-optic faith,this wannabe witchcraftwhere the processingof loneliness growsever faster every day.Plugged into cyclesvicious and viscous,we seek ceaselesslyonly becausewe seek to be sought,dreaming digitallyof digits decodinganother body's text,deathly afraid of beingboth unmaskedand unattached,logging onlyto find ourselvesthe safest of targets,the feeblest flames,unmatched oddsand endless endsstill longing to befound by thosewho aren't evenlooking at all. --- Ruel S. De Vera Quote Link to comment
Apollo Posted November 20, 2005 Share Posted November 20, 2005 for all the special people who are in Long Distance Affair... LONG DISTANCE LOVE AFFAIR "Whisper my name, but not to loudThis moment is ours, no need for a crowdWhen I'm with you my heart singsWhen you leave, my inside stingsSay you love me once againAnd stay with me through thick and thinFor my love for you cannot be tracedNor stolen or torn not even replacedSing me a song that fills my earsWith love unending throughout the yearsMy heart leaps at the sound of your voiceTelling the world that I'm your choiceFor they say it just can't lastIn time this too will passFor no one can love from afarBut what do they know, here we areAnd I'm coming back to get you soonAnd take you even beyond the moonFor I am the groom and you are the brideI'm preparing a place for you by my sideAnd when I return to gather you upYou will sit at my table wherein to supSo many brothers you have never knownSome even helped you find your way homeYou will dine with them allSome great, some meager, some smallBut all so loving and kindJust like you, I'm sure you'll findThe gold, onyx and sapphire so brightNo darkness because of My lightFrom Crystal waters you shall drinkThe glistening colors, blue, silver and pinkWatch the birds as they go bySuch sweet melody ~ James Corwin Quote Link to comment
Apollo Posted November 20, 2005 Share Posted November 20, 2005 a poem I written a few years ago about Internet Friendship... INTERNET FRIENDSHIP "I haven't ever seen you,but I know you're really there;I click you into realitylike magic from the air.Your voice is like an Angel,though I really do not hear;your hug as warm as anyof loved ones I hold dear.You're always there for comfort,or a simple word of cheer;though you're very far away,I always have you near.You're a very special friend, Quote Link to comment
Barenaked-NoMre Posted November 20, 2005 Share Posted November 20, 2005 B, Hmmm ... a promise made but broken. Was hoping to be with you yesterday ... Ayee! When will you be free? I need to HAVE you! A Quote Link to comment
Barenaked-NoMre Posted November 20, 2005 Share Posted November 20, 2005 (edited) A/C, It was good to finally meet you. Thanks for the nice time and succulent dinner! Havent had a good meal like that in a long time. The salmon was delicious! ;-) Also, for your advice ... really sweet of you to make it "my nite". Too bad it was cut short. Next time ... ? ;-P Hope you got back safe there. A Edited November 20, 2005 by barenaked Quote Link to comment
Zerreit Posted November 20, 2005 Share Posted November 20, 2005 I can't believe my heart's still poundingI can't believe how close I cameAnd meanwhile heaven's fallingThe fallen angels flown awayMy worst nightmares became realI got so scared that I forgot my nameAnd that'll be me somedayWith stolen wings and evil waysStraight south with the keys to the pearly gates (Alkaline Trio) That was a very close one mi amigo... Thinking about it still makes my knees shake. I still am sad though about what happened but I'm feeling more relieved each day. Do you ever wonder what could & might have been? I shudder to think... Quote Link to comment
Psyke Posted November 21, 2005 Share Posted November 21, 2005 (edited) para sayo, sana malandi kita. makasama manood ng sine. maka text. lilibre ng ice cream. ipagluluto. kukunan ng picture. gagawan ng wallpaper. gagawan ng website. titigan habang natutulog. tatawagan. bibigyan ng kahit ano. bibiruin. aasarin. liligawan. kagagalitan ako. kagagalitan ko. kainuman. kasama kahit saan. tutulungan. hahalikan (minsan lang). yayakapin, kahit minsan din lang. ihahatid. susunduin. sasabihan ng good nite. unang babatiin ng good morning. isasayaw. mamimiss. iiyakan. aalagaan. ako Edited November 21, 2005 by in_style Quote Link to comment
Wyld Posted November 22, 2005 Share Posted November 22, 2005 (edited) You took away the one thing I did have of you. Along with that you took my heart and my soul. I never asked for much. I was happy with what I had. Once had. Now lost. Taken away. Nothing. Edited November 22, 2005 by Wyld Quote Link to comment
Sequenenre Tao Posted November 23, 2005 Share Posted November 23, 2005 pare, uuwi na ako. salamat sa lahat ng tulong mo... kung hindi gahil sayo, patay na kami ngayun. snira kami ng balasubas na yon, salamat nalang at naging tao ka nang aking ama at pinatunayan mo sa mga taga barrio na naiipit yun pansahod sa kanila ng walang kwentang kaibigan ng ama ko. tapos nag abroad pa tatarntado at ako pa ginawang katiwala sa negosyo nya. nakakarma ang gago, kya lang naka awa yun mga tao nya asaka yun pamilya nya. tingin ko kailangan lang ako ng pamilyang yon kaya mabait sila sakin, sana hindi naman ganon. napamahal na yun mga bata sakin, kya kun hindi dahil sa mga bata, nagpakilala na ako dito. salamat sa lahat, malamang dito na rin ako mag papamilya, malayo nga lang sa balasubas na yon. balik ako sa enero, baka me dala na akong bubuyog saka pang sabong. S Quote Link to comment
don_cruzer Posted November 26, 2005 Share Posted November 26, 2005 I am very grateful to have met you and wish we can maintain the friendship we have started in the future. I do not see us moving beyond that. I know how much time is important to you; hence, I would not like to waist any more of it than i already have. I see my old self in you. You are hardworking and driven. You have your whole future right in front of you and well within reach. You have found your right cause/reason. But, that, i have learned, is not where i want to go. Despite my successes, i have yet to find mine and i remain empty until then. take care, drive carefully... Quote Link to comment
gen_g Posted November 26, 2005 Share Posted November 26, 2005 to go or not to go...to commit or not to at all?....things have happened....my apologies...as much as i can do whatever i can...hope u guys understand..... Quote Link to comment
KristinLavransdatr Posted November 27, 2005 Share Posted November 27, 2005 M, this sure seems late as I am not sure how to react infront of a world that sees me happy all the time. and I can't show myself any happier than what it knows and sees. you calling me on your birthday, 10 days before mine, opened up a dam of emotions of all kinds: fear, joy, relief, sadness, surprise, doubt, love. i did what you asked me and failed. you are crazy telling me to do something i should not, would not. but because you asked me to, i did. i tried. and failed. badly. i can't wait to see you again. if i can sleep my life away, only to wake up 7 weeks from now, i would. as life will then be a drag waiting, not without anticipation. but with a hearbeat. skipping sometimes. but waiting. by the way, i bought a cd that carries the song you told me about. it keeps me awake at night. and moving when i'm slowing down. next time, don't ask me anything i don't want to do. because i won't anymore. will tell you about it when you get here. easy there, gorgeous. Y Quote Link to comment
roxysnonie Posted November 27, 2005 Share Posted November 27, 2005 (edited) honey, it all seems to have crashed on you, this heavy load your about to carry, it seems youre all alone and in the dark, deep inside you know theres HIM, hell be there to help carry your load, hes just waiting for you to call... stand fast my dear, focus. in the dark find yourself and find your strength and know your weakness, learn and use this as you embark in the reality we call life, your kids will be there for you, ill be around for you, rooting for you! your time to shine has come... with all my ....! Edited November 27, 2005 by roxysnonie Quote Link to comment
Guest temperamental Posted November 27, 2005 Share Posted November 27, 2005 (edited) J, I've had enough, and that i am saying with a smiling face. Image Love is unconditional. I have loved you just because. I have loved you but still you felt I could not love you the way you want to be loved. You are right, I cannot love you the way you want to be loved because that is NOT LOVE, that is OBEDIENCE. Loving is meeting halfway. Loving doesn't mean that you need to tolerate each other. That is setting conditions to love. What if that somebody decides that she couldn't love you the way you want to be loved, then will you give up on her? If that is the love I will be dealing with with you, then I chose to rather not love at all. I have loved you despite everything. I have looked beyond your flaws. I have learned to accept who you are. I have learned to accept that you will never ever look at me the way you look at her. I have learned to accept the fact that I can't make love to the only person I want to make love to because he doesn't love me and I do not want to hurt myself. And that is you. Our friends are well aware of our situation and no matter how hard they try to convince me that it's never going to work, I still love you. Unrequited love was the closest thing that I was hoping to get. I do not care if you do love me back, I wouldn't even push you to love you. I was just contented loving you at a distance. I don't care if they see you as somebody unworthy of my affection. I do not care. Because I love you. And why am I saying these things??? I should not be giving you reasons why I love you, because there are no reasons when we love somebody unconditionally. And now I found out that the reason why we can never be is that because I can't love you the way you want to be loved??? You understimated my ability to love beyond reasons. Why don't you just tell me you don't love me? Or I am not beautiful enough for your standards? Or that you can't commit because of a past relationship that did not work? This is bullshit. WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE MY FAULT? Why do I have to be your escape goat this time? You don't love me, that is the reason why we can't be. Good luck finding that person who is willing to love you the way you want her to. No more drama for me.R Edited November 27, 2005 by temperamental Quote Link to comment
KristinLavransdatr Posted November 28, 2005 Share Posted November 28, 2005 (edited) to my sm*ug friend, no, i didn't stoop down to their level. i just crossed the path to check the muck they are in. no, i didn't linger. but you were right about their loneliness and pitiful state. man, you should know i was only selling a little drama... haven't we both agreed that night with my other friend, the jock, that the people in that area are way below our expectations of decency? the faces, the smell, the voices, the acts. must you know, i've only given them an idea of what they couldn't have because they're not even half the creatures they ought to be. i appreciate your concern. fully. KL Edited November 28, 2005 by KristinLavransdatr Quote Link to comment
Apollo Posted November 29, 2005 Share Posted November 29, 2005 What would I giveTo see you smile? HurtBy your avoidanceWanting to comfortWipe away tearsFalling from your eyes... Quote Link to comment
Guest temperamental Posted November 30, 2005 Share Posted November 30, 2005 JL, My day passed thinking about you all the time. Stared at my ceiling, replayed all that what has happened. Such a short time to validate that what I am feeling right now is real On the state of near ecstasy I snapped out of it, I had to. I could not let myself get addicted to you. I am bound to hurt again. R Quote Link to comment
jt2003 Posted December 1, 2005 Share Posted December 1, 2005 Is it even possible to forget? I held you in my arms when there was no more life in you. I kissed your head and your feet. Before that, I watched you die. I knew I had to let you go. Still, I had hoped the day would never come. I had always hoped that I would go before you. I still cry. I often relive that day. After all, it happened just months ago. It feels like years. Still, not a day goes by when I don’t remember that day I held you last. I never thought I could do it, but I did. It was my last gift to you. I held you and gave you those gestures of love that I had given you for years. To this day, I keep asking, “Why did you leave me?” Quote Link to comment
naked_angel Posted December 1, 2005 Share Posted December 1, 2005 (edited) i know sorry's never enough to bring back the old you and the us i love... maybe there never was an us. maybe it was all an illusion we created it's so hard to be relegated to the position of a non-friend - friend. do i wish for this to stop? maybe it's time we do. we're breaking each other's spirit. i made a huge mistake and it's killing me. i don't think i can still go on and pretend i'm doing perfectly fine everytime we talk and everytime we say goodbye, i half expect that you tell me you'll miss me and that you still love me. i want so much to tell you how much i miss you and how i still want to keep the promises i made but i'm scared. i couldn't do with large scale events like you telling me you don't feel it anymore- only small things that are easily hidden. you'll always be my favorite regret. while thoughts of you still float in my mind, i'll never get tired of wondering how you are and if she'll treat you well. tomorrow, i will try to keep thoughts of you locked away in boxes marked do not open. ever and abandoned on the less - travelled byways of my mind. things which i hadn't forgotten but had simpy instead learned to ignore. it will be hard but it's what's best for me. i'm sorry i'm not the stuff dreams are made of. i'll always have shamrock Edited December 1, 2005 by Naked_Angel Quote Link to comment
Barenaked-NoMre Posted December 1, 2005 Share Posted December 1, 2005 (edited) JB, Quite shocking to see the pics you've posted here. So you're into that ... Now, I dont know what to think ... of the time we WERE. Whether I was the ONLY one you were c-ing ... entertaining ... F**CKing. I doubt it. Guess my friends were right about you ... just hearing about what you do, who you are ... they knew right off the bat ... you were using me. I was just too blind to have seen past how I felt about you ... how you made me feel ... how GOOD you are (in bed). I wasted 4 months of my life with you ... the money I'd shell out for your interviews, our overnites, dinners, movies, etc. And it was becoz of you that we got in that accident. I feel so DIRTY now ... You make me SICK! A Edited December 1, 2005 by barenaked Quote Link to comment
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