The Mail Box

[Ladyrocker]

His presence makes me feel alive

Even on the dark lonely night

No one else but you in my mind

Reach out your hand to thee

I need you here with me

Come to me my darling dear

Hold me tight and do come near

 

[Fallback]

the wake of my recovery...

 

When you came into my life,

you breathed a new passion into my soul.

You gave me a reason to face

and conquer each day with purpose, confidence.

You excited my heart and my need to love-

and I did love . . . you.

My world grew bright with all that was you

and my everything became you.

But with no warning or backward glance

you blackened my existence with your retreat-

 

Into another's arms.

 

I felt I couldn't breathe without you.

You left me with no defense. No understanding.

Left to stumble and learn to live my life

alone, without your passion and "love. "

Time crawled when helping me to mend

my shattered soul.

Every step I made toward recovery filled

me with hate and distrust.

 

Bitterness.

 

Gone was the hope and faith. Replaced

hollowly by fear and rage.

In the wake of my recovery I left many

broken hearts. As you left mine.

After many horrid mistakes I slowly came to

realize what I should have known before.

The passion we shared, the love we had-

wasn't because of you.

 

It was because of me.

 

When with you, I wasn't myself.

And I fell.

With my new realization I began a true

recovery- discovery of the beauty within me.

Much time later I can smile at our good times

and leave the pain felt behind me.

I have blossomed into myself. I'm surrounded

by those that truly love me.

Now that you see my newfound independence

and security, you want me again.

Suddenly you see that all you've ever hoped

and wished for is within me.

But with the pain you caused, you taught

me something else.

 

Self-worth.

 

I love myself.

And you don't deserve me.

Goodbye.

[Ladyrocker]

Malalaman mo lang ang halaga ng isang tao pag wala na siya sayo...

 

Ako kaya pag nawala!?

Hanapin mo rin kaya ako?

[moonflower]

if that is what you think of me, wala na ako magagawa. I am sorry I made you that angry....but I have never been your enemy. And I know I am hardly perfect for all the troubles and pains I have in my life, but I do know when I am at fault. I do know how to accept my mistakes. And yes, the people who have chose to not be with me, they have their reasons. And the truth is I am letting go of them coz I do know they have made me learn certain things I would not have learned on my own. I don't hate them for I see them as n impt part of my development. That's all. Sorry I made you feel and think that way towards me. Sorry for the person and friend in you that I have offended.

[moonflower]

hendrik,

 

 

have a good day! i hope to see you on Friday ( tomorrow) but if you really have to go back to... by then I would understand. Two weeks is quite a long time, though. I guess I'll be missing you... and when you come back I hope we are still on track. Don't wanna rush, too. But it would be nice to know that u are there now...and will be there still. Thanks and take care. Text text muna. And call me sana before u leave for...

[Wyld]

 

nung nakilala kita...

parang...

 

nahanap ng isip ko

ang katapat nito

nakita ng aking puso

ang kahati nito

at natagpuan ng aking kaluluwa

ang kakambal nito

 

iniisip ko pa lang...

sinasabi mo na...

ngingiti pa lang ako...

alam mo na agad kung bakit.

 

naririnig ko pa din

ang boses mo sa isip ko...

nadarama ko pa din

pagaalala at pagkalinga mo.

 

malayo ka na kahit andiyan pa din

hindi na abot kamay

nakikita at nakakausap...

pero di maaring hagkan at yakapin.

 

tama na muna sa akin iyon.

siguro balang araw...

ewan natin.

baka nga.

 

:heart:

Edited August 19, 2004 by WyldChik

[moonflower]

hendrik,

 

 

be good. ako din i'll be good as promised.

[Guest the_eight_of_orbs]

X

 

you are sorely missed...

 

only you could have understood my sighs, my oohs and ahhhs at the break of dawn, the crashing of the tide on my feet, the warmth of the sun on my skin, the rapid beats of my heart in the middle of the sea at night when all i can see are the contellations and their reflections on the sea... the breath that i held on to for the longest 45 minutes of my life on the water, holding on to dear life... fear and excitement grasping my heart...

 

oh how i would love to tell you about all six days of it. but you cannot hear me now. i am mute to you as you are deaf to me.

 

i miss you madly.

 

D

[Wyld]

 

Kung may pag aalinlangan sa iyong isipan

Ay ano ang dapat gawin...

Tila dumarating ka sa panahong

Oo kay daling maniwala sa

Talagang mabulaklak na dila.

O di kaya mas madaling...

Hindi bigyang pansin ang sinasabi ng kutob

At ipinapangusap ng isipan...

Naway lumabas, pagpapatunay na hinahanap...

Edited August 19, 2004 by WyldChik

[bleed]

T

 

Why do i feel that you are too good to be true...

 

 

H

[icewulf]

Dear "Me",

 

 

Pagkahulog

by Me

 

Minsan ka lang nakita.

Minsan pa lang nakakasama.

Damdamin ko'y nabihag na.

Pagiisip ko'y nawindang pa.

 

Sa lakas ng 'yong dating

Tila langit ang narating.

Sa sarap ng 'yong haplos

Pusoy nahulog ng lubos.

 

Sa 'yong isang ngiti

Kaluluwa ko'y nakiliti.

Sa 'yong isang sulyap

Ako'y natangay sa alapaap.

 

Bakit ngayon pa?

Bakit ngayon lang?

Tadhana'y nananadya ba?

Ako'y tila isinumpa.

 

Love,

Me

[roxysnonie]

 

honey dearest...

 

its been weeks since we saw each other last,

you know me too well that i've been thinking of you ever since

that i drown myself in labor just to wallow the longing, the fleeting wanting

to hear your frail voice and your laughter

 

its been weeks of cold, and rain

that certain chill, of loneliness

yearning of warmth, and concern

a loving embrace, that smile on your face

 

we know our hearts speaks the same language,

oh so different of the world around us

we move about in worldly accordance

yet we wait, when our time will come

 

so how, we both ask

well dear, you said it so yourself

"let's see what the day brings, and live it one at a time"

i just hope and pray, time will be on our side!

 

I love you...

 

sbv

Edited August 23, 2004 by roxysnonie

[Guest dopleganger]

JR,

 

I need to say goodbye. You have hurt me and in turn hurt others even from where you are now. Regrets I have many but the biggest one is You. But there's nothing I can do about it, not even bash at you because you are already rotting. My wish came true too soon. I followed you blindingly into the wonerful world of what I thought was love, when I opened my eyes it was dark, and there is nothing beautiful here. Gone is the innocence you so loved and vowed to protect. You turned me into you and I have turned others into mirror images of me. I would not wish this on an enemy and yet I can not stop.

 

Gusto kong hukayin ang libingan mo para lang mailabas ko lahat ng sakit, lahat ng kasamaan. Hindi pa sapat na naghihirap ka kung nasaan ka man. Madaya ka.

 

But why is it when I close my eyes I still see you. How is it when I feel lonely I still feel how much our love - my love for you comforted me throughout the ordeal? How is it that I can't remember what I felt for my x's of five and three years but I still remember the feel of our first kiss? How come I can't remember how the guy I was with last Saturday look like but I remember your face that I haven't seen in over seven years?

 

Baby

[a_ngel]

para sayo

 

 

inaamim ko hindi ako henyo

dunong ko'y ala pa yata sa kalahati ng sayo

pero wag mo naman insultuhin ang aking talino

sa mahalimuyak at matamis na dila mo

 

hindi ko man kaya gumawa ng tula

kahit medyo pilit at nakakahiya

wag mo sana akong gamitan ng salita

kung nais mo pagkakaibiga'y di mawala

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I may not be a rocket scientist nor a physicist to figure out what your trying to do.

So you better stop it before everything goes haywire.

 

I want to keep you forever so please dont do anything silly/stupid to make me change my mind.

[Guest bubblegum]

Mahal ko,

 

I missed you so much.. I know you would usually brush the thought as me being OA.. pero ganun talaga eh. And I'm sad that you don't miss me as much.

 

Anyway, I love you still... nothing can ever change that.

[roxysnonie]

 

honey,

 

another weekend is upon me, and here i am wondering will i or will i not...

 

i know you said it's not in the quantity but the quality of time we spend together that matters most, and i do agree, but then sometimes the longing kicks in, overwhelming me in melancholy...

 

will i or will i not?

 

let's see...

 

luv ya!

 

sbv

[ziggyzag]

A,

 

i'm really sorry to let u hear this..

 

even though i still consider u as someone special to me..

 

i already have j.. i guess i love her now and that ur return is a bit late..

 

if only u bothered to email or call while u were still away, i could have waited for u to come back..

 

but, u did not.. and i'm no martyr..

 

and i have her already..

 

im sorry A.. wish u lots of blessings in ur life..

 

Z

[Guest LovingSouL]

P

 

Why do we have to say hello

And eventually say goodbye?

There must be a reason

That I don’t know why

 

Why do we have to fall in love

Then end up as friends?

Wouldn’t be easy if

It’s the other way around?

 

Why do we have to share the same feelings

When we knew we’re not meant to be?

Love is such a mystery but it will

Always be there for you and me

 

M

[moonflower]

thanks... i don't know if time will be on my side. don't really know much these days. and what i thought to be true always turns out wrong. time and time again some words feel empty and without meaning. im not counting on anything anymore. il let things run their course. whatever will be will be.

[drEVILmba]

MTC....

 

 

Thank you for the wonderful year that was.....

 

 

I have met countless people and have hopefully made more than a few friends...

 

 

I have accumulated resources that were previously nt available to me. I have met important people as a howler.....

 

 

Hopefully the coming year would grant me even more.... and hopefully i can help out the newbies....

[Wyld]

 

clammy hands.

cold feet.

a thudding heart.

a reeling mind.

 

you.

me.

eternity.

a yearning.

 

a void.

a mirage.

a certainty.

a random thought

 

warm hands.

warmer feet.

a still heart.

a focused mind.

 

resignation.

acceptance.

excitement.

anticipation.

 

joy?

maybe.

happiness?

hopefully.

 

when?

no one knows.

why?

no one knows.

 

one just feels.

 

:heart:

Edited August 20, 2004 by WyldChik

[gen_g]

just when it was about to end......now hanging by a thread.....at this point i'm letting go...........do my true best and set my wicked ways straight supposedly..........im alone on that battle..........

[moonflower]

 

for you...

 

 

i have realized that there are really some things that are not meant to be. i know in my mind and heart that we already are friends...but even friendships has its limits. i tried not texting u anymore... giving our friendship a lil bit of space and making an effort not to think of you at all. but how far does one really have to move do be remembered by you? to be close to you? to get that smile, that witty conversation you so willingly give others? how much would it take just for you to drop by even if just once when you are here? how much would it take for you have a special message for me, as you have for others? I guess you are that priceless... I only wish I could afford you. I guess it is one of those dreams that come in your life that you strive to achieve because it matters to you...but you are realizing by d day that there are still things you have yet to learn in order to make it work. Even then, there are no guarantees. I am dealing with that coz I cant bear the sadness and maybe how shallow I am being, and more importantly because I am already scared of asking anything from you. I don't wanna be wrong to you anymore.

[Mayella]

sweetie,

 

it has been an amazing week. thank you for deciding to come home. i believe it has made things easier for us such that what we have is in its truest and most real sense now.

 

i am saddened by our temporary separation but we both know that it won't be long before we will be together again. i miss you terribly.

 

L

[Wyld]

 

for my dearest tiger... :evil:

 

a few more days and you go off to test your mettle against that formidable foe... the bar exams...

 

i know youre distracted and of course i understand... iv already told you many times over that i AM rooting for you... prayin for you and keeping my arms, legs and all other appendages crossed for your success.

 

i wont wish you luck ... luck is feckless and aimless... rather i will pray and wish for your success... i know you have it in you ... i believe in you. i also know things have not been easy lately... in more ways than one... i can only tell you to keep your eyes on the goalpost... affix your steady gaze to that one aim... be firm, be steadfast.

 

i know it will be a hellish several weekends for you ... heck, i know its, as of this writing, a hellish time for you... but it will soon be over... i know so. hang in there...

 

funny how things seem to be falling into place ... i do think we will get our hang-out time soon... prepare your comfortable shoes, our book basket and all the stories we plan to trade... get ready for a never ending rush (caffeine and otherwise...) ... it will be one long hang out time ...

 

im prayin for you tiger... take care and hang in there...

 

missin you heaps...

 

-n

Edited August 21, 2004 by WyldChik