The Mail Box

[Ladyrocker]

His presence makes me feel alive

Even on the dark lonely night

No one else but you in my mind

Reach out your hand to thee

I need you here with me

Come to me my darling dear

Hold me tight and do come near

 

[Fallback]

the wake of my recovery...

 

When you came into my life,

you breathed a new passion into my soul.

You gave me a reason to face

and conquer each day with purpose, confidence.

You excited my heart and my need to love-

and I did love . . . you.

My world grew bright with all that was you

and my everything became you.

But with no warning or backward glance

you blackened my existence with your retreat-

 

Into another's arms.

 

I felt I couldn't breathe without you.

You left me with no defense. No understanding.

Left to stumble and learn to live my life

alone, without your passion and "love. "

Time crawled when helping me to mend

my shattered soul.

Every step I made toward recovery filled

me with hate and distrust.

 

Bitterness.

 

Gone was the hope and faith. Replaced

hollowly by fear and rage.

In the wake of my recovery I left many

broken hearts. As you left mine.

After many horrid mistakes I slowly came to

realize what I should have known before.

The passion we shared, the love we had-

wasn't because of you.

 

It was because of me.

 

When with you, I wasn't myself.

And I fell.

With my new realization I began a true

recovery- discovery of the beauty within me.

Much time later I can smile at our good times

and leave the pain felt behind me.

I have blossomed into myself. I'm surrounded

by those that truly love me.

Now that you see my newfound independence

and security, you want me again.

Suddenly you see that all you've ever hoped

and wished for is within me.

But with the pain you caused, you taught

me something else.

 

Self-worth.

 

I love myself.

And you don't deserve me.

Goodbye.

[Ladyrocker]

Malalaman mo lang ang halaga ng isang tao pag wala na siya sayo...

 

Ako kaya pag nawala!?

Hanapin mo rin kaya ako?

[moonflower]

if that is what you think of me, wala na ako magagawa. I am sorry I made you that angry....but I have never been your enemy. And I know I am hardly perfect for all the troubles and pains I have in my life, but I do know when I am at fault. I do know how to accept my mistakes. And yes, the people who have chose to not be with me, they have their reasons. And the truth is I am letting go of them coz I do know they have made me learn certain things I would not have learned on my own. I don't hate them for I see them as n impt part of my development. That's all. Sorry I made you feel and think that way towards me. Sorry for the person and friend in you that I have offended.

[moonflower]

hendrik,

 

 

have a good day! i hope to see you on Friday ( tomorrow) but if you really have to go back to... by then I would understand. Two weeks is quite a long time, though. I guess I'll be missing you... and when you come back I hope we are still on track. Don't wanna rush, too. But it would be nice to know that u are there now...and will be there still. Thanks and take care. Text text muna. And call me sana before u leave for...

[Wyld]

 

nung nakilala kita...

parang...

 

nahanap ng isip ko

ang katapat nito

nakita ng aking puso

ang kahati nito

at natagpuan ng aking kaluluwa

ang kakambal nito

 

iniisip ko pa lang...

sinasabi mo na...

ngingiti pa lang ako...

alam mo na agad kung bakit.

 

naririnig ko pa din

ang boses mo sa isip ko...

nadarama ko pa din

pagaalala at pagkalinga mo.

 

malayo ka na kahit andiyan pa din

hindi na abot kamay

nakikita at nakakausap...

pero di maaring hagkan at yakapin.

 

tama na muna sa akin iyon.

siguro balang araw...

ewan natin.

baka nga.

 

:heart:

Edited August 19, 2004 by WyldChik

[moonflower]

hendrik,

 

 

be good. ako din i'll be good as promised.

[Guest the_eight_of_orbs]

X

 

you are sorely missed...

 

only you could have understood my sighs, my oohs and ahhhs at the break of dawn, the crashing of the tide on my feet, the warmth of the sun on my skin, the rapid beats of my heart in the middle of the sea at night when all i can see are the contellations and their reflections on the sea... the breath that i held on to for the longest 45 minutes of my life on the water, holding on to dear life... fear and excitement grasping my heart...

 

oh how i would love to tell you about all six days of it. but you cannot hear me now. i am mute to you as you are deaf to me.

 

i miss you madly.

 

D

[Wyld]

 

Kung may pag aalinlangan sa iyong isipan

Ay ano ang dapat gawin...

Tila dumarating ka sa panahong

Oo kay daling maniwala sa

Talagang mabulaklak na dila.

O di kaya mas madaling...

Hindi bigyang pansin ang sinasabi ng kutob

At ipinapangusap ng isipan...

Naway lumabas, pagpapatunay na hinahanap...

Edited August 19, 2004 by WyldChik

[bleed]

T

 

Why do i feel that you are too good to be true...

 

 

H

[icewulf]

Dear "Me",

 

 

Pagkahulog

by Me

 

Minsan ka lang nakita.

Minsan pa lang nakakasama.

Damdamin ko'y nabihag na.

Pagiisip ko'y nawindang pa.

 

Sa lakas ng 'yong dating

Tila langit ang narating.

Sa sarap ng 'yong haplos

Pusoy nahulog ng lubos.

 

Sa 'yong isang ngiti

Kaluluwa ko'y nakiliti.

Sa 'yong isang sulyap

Ako'y natangay sa alapaap.

 

Bakit ngayon pa?

Bakit ngayon lang?

Tadhana'y nananadya ba?

Ako'y tila isinumpa.

 

Love,

Me

[roxysnonie]

 

honey dearest...

 

its been weeks since we saw each other last,

you know me too well that i've been thinking of you ever since

that i drown myself in labor just to wallow the longing, the fleeting wanting

to hear your frail voice and your laughter

 

its been weeks of cold, and rain

that certain chill, of loneliness

yearning of warmth, and concern

a loving embrace, that smile on your face

 

we know our hearts speaks the same language,

oh so different of the world around us

we move about in worldly accordance

yet we wait, when our time will come

 

so how, we both ask

well dear, you said it so yourself

"let's see what the day brings, and live it one at a time"

i just hope and pray, time will be on our side!

 

I love you...

 

sbv

Edited August 23, 2004 by roxysnonie

[Guest dopleganger]

JR,

 

I need to say goodbye. You have hurt me and in turn hurt others even from where you are now. Regrets I have many but the biggest one is You. But there's nothing I can do about it, not even bash at you because you are already rotting. My wish came true too soon. I followed you blindingly into the wonerful world of what I thought was love, when I opened my eyes it was dark, and there is nothing beautiful here. Gone is the innocence you so loved and vowed to protect. You turned me into you and I have turned others into mirror images of me. I would not wish this on an enemy and yet I can not stop.

 

Gusto kong hukayin ang libingan mo para lang mailabas ko lahat ng sakit, lahat ng kasamaan. Hindi pa sapat na naghihirap ka kung nasaan ka man. Madaya ka.

 

But why is it when I close my eyes I still see you. How is it when I feel lonely I still feel how much our love - my love for you comforted me throughout the ordeal? How is it that I can't remember what I felt for my x's of five and three years but I still remember the feel of our first kiss? How come I can't remember how the guy I was with last Saturday look like but I remember your face that I haven't seen in over seven years?

 

Baby

[a_ngel]

para sayo

 

 

inaamim ko hindi ako henyo

dunong ko'y ala pa yata sa kalahati ng sayo

pero wag mo naman insultuhin ang aking talino

sa mahalimuyak at matamis na dila mo

 

hindi ko man kaya gumawa ng tula

kahit medyo pilit at nakakahiya

wag mo sana akong gamitan ng salita

kung nais mo pagkakaibiga'y di mawala

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I may not be a rocket scientist nor a physicist to figure out what your trying to do.

So you better stop it before everything goes haywire.

 

I want to keep you forever so please dont do anything silly/stupid to make me change my mind.

[Guest bubblegum]

Mahal ko,

 

I missed you so much.. I know you would usually brush the thought as me being OA.. pero ganun talaga eh. And I'm sad that you don't miss me as much.

 

Anyway, I love you still... nothing can ever change that.