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[nyekker]

when i was younger....

 

parang sa basketball - naagawan ka bigla, tapos, natira agad

[Guest k E i J i 👻]

Tumama sa matigas na bahay yung siko or tuhod mo then para kang na-ground.

[vins]

Ang sakit list.....nakaapak k n pako ang sssaaakkiittt.......!!!

[uaeboy25]

Pagmamadali sa pag jingle maipit ng zipper ung kargada. Ouch

[Guest Babyloves]

mas okay ng tanggapin yung sakit kesa sa nasasaktan kana pero nag papatuloy ka padin

[Migraine14]

Yung tinago tago mo yung paborito mong pagkaen sa ref tapos pagtingin ko kinabukasan wala na

[fredbautista1234]

Hey dude. I quoted this kasi may bits na kagaya ng ishare ko sa sakit list. The highschool and regret parts. Somehow I feel the sadness like you do. Sakit nu! Haha. Anyway, here’s my story. Pasensya napo sa babasa dahil mahaba. ADMINS!!! or to the member who created this thread, Please delete my post if you find this na sobrang lengthy at against rules ng mtc. Sa babasa, thank you! I just really need to get this off my chest. Sorry!

 

So I had (or still have) this friend from highschool. Kabarkada sya ng then nililigawan ko. Oftentimes sknya ako ngcoconfide o ngkkwento pag may ga problema ako, lalo n about s kbrkada nya. Para saken we were so close back then. We’d text or call each other almost every day after school, mdalas p inaabot kmi ng mdaling araw. I think I spent more time with her kesa s nililigawan ko. Heck, I was even able to convince my parents for the very first time in my life na kikitulog ako s bahay ng iba. Sa bahay nila. Ilang beses narin nmn sumagi sa isip ko na paano kya kung sya nlng ang ligawan ko. Pero imposible at that time. I know she saw me as a friend. Mas mabigat pa e pinopormahan sya ng kabarkada ko (bro code). So to make things short, natapos ang high school life naming, hindi rin nmn kmi ngktuluyan ng friend nya. Worst, I never had the courage to ask her whether may unrealized feelings b between us. Si I left and continued with my life. High school naman yun, isip bata pa kaya I thought it was just a phase n pgtgal e mwwala din. We parted ways without saying a word.

 

I went on and strayed away from the life I had ng high school. I lost communication with all of my friends including her. College. There I met a girl who eventually became my girlfriend. For four long years I thought everything was clear and I’ doing well. Pero after graduation, something unexpected happened. A common friend of ours managed to find me (thank you facebook) and asked me to join a “mini reunion”. Back then we were PMT (CAT for others) officers and there were four of us who considered ourselves apart from the other officers. Thinking how fun it would be to reunite with old friends, pumayag ako. We agreed to meet at pgdting ko, there she was- as stunning as ever. Four long years na walang ha ni ho, she was standing right in front of me. Kamustahan lang, catch up. Inom ng konti. Although limited yung oras, we definitely had fun. I was dead drop wasted at dinala nila ko sa bahay inihiga nila ako sa bahay niya at inihigas sa sofa. Thinking na hindi ko na alam nangyyri, pingkkwentuhan nila ako right in my face. Funny thing was, she told our friend this: “alam mo sabi ni *** ang gwapo daw ngyon nitong si ***. Sabi ko sa loob ko, talaga, dati pa!”. That statement let a grin show on my face. Honestly natawa lng ako thinking na sabi na baka may gusto nmn pla sya sakin dati pa.

 

The following weeks went well and we somehow rekindled our friendship. A few months have passed and we remained in touch. It was also then that we made our mutual admissions na may gusto pla kmi s isat isa nung highschool. Pero it did not materialize dhil nga we’re friends sa respective nililigawan ko/ nanliligaw sknya. We’ve joked around paano kung sya nng niligawan ko and she told me n ssgutin nmn daw sna nya ako kung ginawa ko. She told me na even her mom would have wanted us to be together. Her mom and her sis liked me well and sana daw boyfriend n lng nya ako. It felt good. Dahil when I met her parents and her sister, they gave me a warm welcome as if I’ part of their family. A time came that I was manila bound and so was she. She went to manila for review. Sa few months n yon, we’d meet several times and this one time niyaya nya ako s dorm nila. It was the first time na natulog kami ng magkatabi (ofcourse with the presence of her other roommates). Pero that was all. Nothing romantic whatsoever so don’t expect n may kwentong pang-FR. Haha. We simply still consider ourselves good friends kya siguro it was not awkward at the time. Pero the catch is, my girlfriend ko prin si college girl kaya wla prin tlgng pwdng romance n mgkron s pagitan nmin. I don’t know about her, she’s a bit secretive s lovelife nya pero I doubt kung may bf sya at the time. In fact, I know walang mngyyri at kesa umasa s imposible e ntigil ulit ang communications nmin. Last thing I knew was she passed the board exam.

 

For the second time, lumipas ang mrming taon na hindi kmi nagkakausap. I took up a post-grad course and tarried with my life. Nagiba ako. I had a life with no direction and even affiliated myself as the babaero type. Pero I was lucky dhil despite ng mga pgkkmali ko, my girlfriend was still there and she never left me. Three years. Eto nanaman. Someone suddenly sent me a message. And yes, sya yun. Funny thing was, she asked me a favor to PRETEND AS HER BOYFRIEND to get rid of her suitor na ang kondisyon lang daw pra tigilan sya e pag nptunyang may bf n sya. Apparently I was the best candidate kasi di ako kilala at hnd ako active s facebook. And I don’t know what the f#&k was wrong with me pero pumyag ako. I don’t know why everytimme mgpprmmdam sya sken e excited ako mkita sya, I don’t know how to explain it pero pra akong tanga na bumabalik s nkaraan pg may pgkktaong mkksama ko sya. Everything comes back to me, the memories and the feelings. Mali kasi committed nko. Pero just the same pumunta ako, pinaghalong excitement at anxiousness ang bitbit ko. She and her work friends went on an outing. So ako naman in full “boyfriend mode” na may dala pang chocolates at malaking teddy bear to surprise her. True enough, nniwala ung mga ksma nya s “sweetness” namin. Pero the pretense was without beso o kht holding hands. Ako nmn tanga e paniwala din sa palabras namin. Pero sadly, that didn’t last. After that day e I felt n tinamad siyang mkipgusap sakin. I don’t exactly know what happened or what her reasons were pero nung time n niyaya ko sya lumabas e inignore nlng nya messages ko. As if walang ngyri nung ngpkboyfriend kuno ako. Siguro dahil she knew na kami prin nung girlfriend ko. Sadly, nawala na siya ulit. Once again she came and left. Panglawang beses n sbi ko. It’s not meant to be. She’d come back to my life with all the feelings in it pero in a flick of a finger e aalis din agad sya. Mahirap makiramdam, lalo na dahil ako ung may hindrance, ako yung meron pampigil sa kung ano mang pwdng mgkron between us.

 

Copy paste ung una at pangalwang nangyari. Life goes on bla blab la. Pero eto nnmn, I can’t exactly remember who sent the first Hello. Ako ata. Nagkmustahan lng pero nauwi sa ilang linggong usapan. What I learned was she went abroad to practice her profession. Siguro nga ako ung naunang mangamusta dahil I felt so low at that time. My girlfriend of 9 years (yes, still the same) and I suddenly broke up dahil sa mabigat na misunderstanding. Hinanap hanap ko sya and tried to reach out. Siguro this time pwede. Siguro this time pagkakataon na kami. So we spent several hours a day talking in facebook. Buti nlng may libreng call s messenger. For hours everday ttwag ako sknya kung nkduty sya or before she sleeps. And there was this one time n may ipinangako ako. I told her na pupuntahan ko sya. Na magpapagawa nako ng passport at magaaply ng visa as soon as possible. This time possible na, wala nang naghohold back sken dhil wala nkong commitment. We expressed how we like each other and how we dream n mgmeet kmi abroad, possibly start something out of ourselves. And so I did start a plan. Through best efforts nkpgpa-passport ako. All i need to be granted a visa. Pero I believe na pag planado ang lahat e ska pa nasisira. Sobrang bilis pero out of nowhere nagkausap kmi ni ex at ngkblikan kmi. Ewan. Nalimutan ko bigla yung pangako ko sknya. Ako nmn ung nawala. I ignored her messages. Including her words na “I really like you”. Pero I loved my girlfriend. Deep down kahit “gago” daw ako, I always went back to her and she accepted me. Mahal ko si gf and not wanting to lose her again, we decided to settle down. At the back of my mind, siguro ako at ung other girl e wla lng tlg. We live to serve as reminders of how joyous youth was. Pero inisip ko na the feeling, at siya mismo will just come and go. Na dahil wala nmn tlgng mngyyri, or thinking na hindi nmn totoo everytime sinsabi nyang gusto nya ako, e wla na. I cpuld let go of the past. Yes, I got married a few months after I stopped communicating with the other girl. Mabilis, lahat ngulat. Pero it was my decision.

 

Pero guess what. The day after I got married she sent me a message asking “masaya ka”. I thought it was a valid question so I answered yes. Yun pla it was in a fit of anger na para bng masaya ka kasi niloko mo ako? Kasi hindi ko alam n ikakasal kna pla? And once more nsbihan nnmn ako n gago. Hindi n kmi ngkausap. Galit sya sakin alam ko. Pero hindi ko nrin maintindihan dahil hnd ko nmn alam kung totoo pb sinasabi nya sken n gusto nya ako. A year after, i am blessed with a daughter and im living a contented life. I remembered na nbnggit ni other girl na uuwi sya ng December. So bka sakali lng n hnd n sya galit skin. I messaged her again and saktong sakto nmn n nakauwi n pla sya. 1 week lang sya mgstay. Pinilit ko mkausap sya dahil gusto ko nmn sna n walang hard feelings smin KUNG totoo ngang nsktan sya n ngpksal nko. Pumyag sya. Pero hindi ko tlg maintindihan dhil ang gusto nya e she’d me lang for a few minutes daw. Pra lang daw magkita kmi after a long time. Dahil paalis nrin sya in 3 days. So I went kht pa ang tingin ko e itinataboy nmn nya ako.

 

I parked my car s labas ng resto n tinmbayan nila. And things were not what we both expected. Minutes became more than an hour. The first few moments after the usual hi hello tagal n nteng hndi ngkita e nsundan ng labasan ng sama ng loob. For years gusto ko sbihin sknya bkt paulit ulit nya akong pipaasa n gusto nya ako. Alam ko bawal ako dati pero nung time n pwd e papaasahin nlng nya ako tpos pra syang bula n mwawala. I told her na hindi sa nireregret kong ngpkasal nko, pero nakakapanghinayang lang tlg. She did the same. I asked her, “bakit? Nung time ba n bgo ako mgpksal e mssbi mong mahal mo na ako?”. She answered no. Wala pa daw sa level na “mahal”. Sinabi lang nya n totoo nmn daw lhat, n she liked me so much and she really wanted to be with me. Na she cried for three days after nya malaman n kasal na ako. Hindi ko alam kung maniniwala pa ako. Sinabi ko akala ko mas gagaan pkirmdam ko pag nailabas ko lahat ng sama ng loob ko sakanya. Bkit lalong bumigat? Right there and then. She held her hands in front of me and we held hands for the very first time. Sabi ko, why the hell did it take you all those years pra gawin yan. Sinabi nyang “bakit, ako ba dapat mauna?” and we let out a chuckle. Nasa isip ko it might be the last time na magkikita pa kmi. Siguro nga pumyag lng sya mkipgkita dhil kgya ko, siguro we agreed to meet to finally let go of the past. So naglakas ako ng loob and asked her for one last favor. “Pwede ba kitang mayakap sa una at huling pagkakataon?”. I don’t know if she was waiting for me to say that, because she agreed. Out of respect to my wife, inalis ko wedding ring ko. Dahil for that single moment, kung pwd lang sna na walang hindrances, n Malaya ako, n pwd kme. Inalis ko singsing ko pra mklimutan kht for the shortest moment n hnd n kmi pwd. We hugged each other so tight n pra bang ayaw nming mawala ang isat isa. Pero that embrace also meant na we finally accepted na we can never be together anymore. Umiyak ako. She did not. Pero after the embrace she leaned over. And yes, we kissed. We kissed n prang pwede. Pra sken tumigil ang oras. It took us 13 long years to realize how we wanted that kiss to happen. 13 years bago nya naipramdam sken. It was short. Pero I knew it was sincere. She loved me. Ramdam ko yon kahit hnd nya sabihin. “Goodbye kiss ba yan?” I asked. She said yes. Paulit ulit nyang sinabi n she had to go dahil hinhanap n sya ng friends nya. Pero tinanong ko sya kung GUSTO ba nyang umalis. Hindi sya makasagot. And she stayed a bit longer. Di ko alam pero we kissed again. Mas mtgal, mas ayaw nang bumitaw. Mas totoo. Mas hindi pwede. She immediately got out of the car but not before bidding me goodbye and telling me to “behave”. It’s the last time she said. And she was gone. I got out of the car and tried na habulin sya pero alam kong hindi pwede. I was standing out there pero nririnig ko boses nya at tinatanong kung “anjan p bung kotseng pula”. She did not come out again. And I knew wala na. Ang bigat bigat. Ang sakit. I texted her to thank her for seeing me, without saying anything about what happened. And all I got was an “Ingat” reply.

 

Di ko ala bakit nagpilit pa ako. I told her that I intended to keep my promise na I’ll behave pero I insisted na magkita prin kmi one last time. She reluctantly agreed. Dahil bakit mas dumami p ang what ifs ko. The next day we met at SM, but now she was with her mom and her sister. Awkward. Dhil her mom kept on reminding me when and how we last met about 10 years ago. She told me that tita knows I’ married now. Pero nung ngsamasama kmi for lunch, kinukulit ako ni tita and kept on insisting that me and her daughter should take many pictures together. I don’t know if it was only me pero parang ibinibiro prin kmi s isa’t isa. We spent hours together and it went well. To be honest, ginusto ko lang ult mahwakan kamay nya kht last n. Several times we held hands and she would put her around my shoulders kpag nktlikod sina tita. We knew it was wrong kya hnggang dun lang. ayoko n snang mtpos ung oras. Limited nnmn. I had to go back to my office and I knew time was ticking. Paalis na ako. Baka hindi n ulit kita Makita pa. Pero I had to go, and so do you. I bid my farewell to tita and the sis. Pero we stayed for a while. Seconds, minutes, di ko tanda. Hindi nmin mlaman ggwin at ssbihin. Pero one last time niyakap ko sya at she kissed my cheek.

 

That night I texted her na I promise na even if we failed as lovers, maybe we would’t fail as friens. I sent her several more messages pero hnd n ult sya sumagot. You see, that has always been the problem. S haba ng kwento ko plgi syang susulpot at bigla nrin akong iiwan s ere. Except for that one last time n ako ang nawala at ngpkasal nko. Pero hoping n kht pano ssgot p sya. I still sent her my essages. The following day was her flight back abroad. Kahit anong text o twag ko hnd n sya nsgot. In one last attempt, I asked her. At sinagot nya. Here’s what our final conversation was:

 

“did you mean it? O spur of the moment lang?”

 

“doesn’t matter. You have a wife and kid now. Focus on them okay? Paalis na ko. Ingat ka lagi ***”

 

“it does for me. Mas magaan magletgo ng nrramdman knowing all of it was real”

 

I knew she received it. Or sinadya nyang isend last message nya before boarding the plane and turning off her phone. That was her last txt. And I don’t believe that we’ll talk even through facebook ever again. I wish you could hear me. I wish you’d know. As I’m typing this, her plane is bound abroad. Dati ntatawa ako pg may nririnig akong kwento na yung matanda daw e hnd nkatuluyan ung “love of his/ her life” nya. Masaya naman daw sa asawa at pamilya pero meron daw tlg minsan ang tao n love of his/ her life n hnd mkktuluyan. I don’t find it funny anymore. Kasi masakit pala. I have no regrets with my wife and I love her. Much more na mahal ko yung anak ko. Pero siguro nga this girl would be the one na mamahalin kong hnd pwd. Siguro bata pa kami pero all our lives I have respected her and maybe actually loved her from the start. Masakit. It’s painful to let go. I’ll miss you. You’ll forever be my “almost”. Hindi mo na siguro malalaman, pero my daughter was nicknamed after you.

 

 

bro...nakarelate ako although medyo iba tayo ng mga pangyayari...sa akin deep inside alam ko kahit papano minahal niya ako..bwisit na crush kasi na kapit-bahay yan..niligawan ako nung lola nya nung high school..akala ko yung fantasy girl ko at laging dinudungaw sa bintana eh un na ung true love ko kaya natakpan ung feelings ko dito kay Valedictorian...akala ko lahat ng tawag at paghatid ko sa kanya during that time eh talagang no feelings kumbaga kasi nga dahil kay crush..tapos naging atat ako magka GF nung time na un at uso pa ang chat kaya kahit long distance relationship kinagat ko not knowing na etong high school friend ko eh isang tumbling lang ang layo...tapos hindi ko alam kung mean nya ang mga sinabi nya sa akin na "pinagseselosan ka kasi ng bf ko"- what does it mean..ibig sabihin naging mahalaga din ako sa buhay nya at nakiwento nya ako sa bf nya; then one incident nagkita kami sa Sampaloc terminal ng bus ang unang sagot niya sa akin "sabi na nga ba makikita kita dito eh"....iniisip ko na lang na in common response lang ung mga sinabi nya at walang meaning pero ang hindi ko makalimutan ay ung painting at letter na binigay niya..kahit tinapon ko na ang mga yun...nasa alaala ko pa din ang mga nilalaman niya...how she said na akala nya ang buhay ay tungkol sa pag-aaral lang at nireflect nya ang buhay nya sa isang bouquet ng flowers dahil sa akin...ang tanga tanga ko...after 15 years i made contact of her thru phone kasi nga nasa abroad na ako..nasabi ko ang mga gusto ko sabihin pero not to the extent na sabihin na mahal ko pa din sya...pero it was a relief in my part..kahit papano nasabi ko sa kanya ang mga bagay na hindi ko nasabi nuon...na napagka special nya sa akin na kahit may mga naging relationship ako na iba sya pa din ang naiisip ko...sabi nya na wag daw ako mabuhay sa regret..just appreciate what I currently have yun ang sabi nya...after three days of communication tinigil ko na..ayoko masira family ko at ayoko makasira ng ibang family..siguro tanggapin ko na lang...thanks bro at may karamay din pala ako...hehehe..cheers

[Watsonwatson]

Ganoon talaga.

[uaeboy25]

Pinakamasakit ung wala kang matanggap sa monito monita mo nyahahah

[manjack99]

6 words: "I JUST WANT TO BE FRIENDS"

 

After waiting for high school and college to end, kasi "studies daw muna", biglang during one of your inuman sessions with the barkada, kasama niya first boyfriend niya na kapangalan mo pa, pero mas matangkad, mas gwaping, at mas macho sayo.

 

Getting a call from her out of the blue, she's crying, then says "I'm pregnant." Pero wala naman nangyari sa inyo, LDR kasi.

[Redrigio2]

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[27whims]

... when you are NOT a priority ...

[uaeboy25]

... when you are NOT a priority ...

 

Priority nya ung dota

[clandestinecuddles]

No greetings or gifts on special occassions ............... ang sakiiit!

[boymasahe10]

Ang pinakamasakit nung narealize mo na mali ginawa mo pero its too late na para maibalik kasi may iba na sya