Iloveyouamiga

Don't do it. Umamin ako na gusto ko siya, umamin din siya sakin. Mileage was crazy high - even higher than some of my previous relationships. Eventually entrance fee nalang binayaran ko. After sessions, since last session ako kumukuha, magccoffee pa kami around the area. Nakailang meals together narin kami sa ibat ibang resto. Nahatid ko pa siya sa legit niyang bahay. Sobrang nagopen up rin siya sakin. About her life, her past, her troubles, her worries and all the shit you don't usually say to just anyone. Araw araw kami naguusap nun and I fell in love. I never told her na mahal ko na siya kasi takot ako haha. Marupok kuya mo. Some people forget that there's a person behind the thera. I saw her for who she was behind her handlename and I really believed na I would be happy with that person. I knew na she didn't like me just for the money. I knew it wasn't just transactional sa kanya. I could feel it. Siya panga nanlibre one time. Andami niya rin restrictions sa MTC but they were lifted for me, plus more. She was and i think still is one of the top theras based on what I see here sa MTC. Grabe rin sched niya sunod sunod. Yet she still found the time to update me. Then reality hits. Life happens. Time together becomes harder to come by. You start to get more frustrated with the whole situation you're both in. You're always worried she'll fall for the next client like how she fell for you. Naging cold nalang siya bigla. Dati, nung nagtatampo pa ako she would make an effort pa to console me and rid me of my concerns. But that last time, she just let it be. She just stopped. Maybe she did fall for another person or maybe napagod din siya sa situation. Who knows, but at this point it doesn't matter. But to be honest, every time tumutunog cellphone ko, i still wish na pangalan niya lalabas haha. I hate myself for that. There's a bright side to all this. Nawalan ako ng bisyo. I can't pay for company anymore becase just the nature of it reminds me of what we used to be. It reminds me of what I had and lost, and the pain i went through and still am going through right now. Drama no? But i think this is for the better. I'll be stronger from this. I just had to learn the hard way. Take it from me. Don't do it. Kahit na gusto niyo isa't isa, life will make the whole ordeal a shitfest. Nevertheless, this was fun while it lasted! Enjoy brodies, I'm graduating!