Shiro

sauteed vegetables (from last night ), mineral water, black coffee

2 pieces of fried chicken and black coffee...

you can not (read never, ever) do anything to change the way someone feels about you.

I used to to drink nothing else but tequila (gold) and each time I'd get wasted, I'd complain endlessly about the nasty, nasty hangover it causes Then i shifted to vodka, which doesn't give me brain-crushing headaches as much as tequila does.

 

I drink San Mig Light every once in a while. But i can only do so when it's ice cold. Otherwise, deyna

heheh... MA!

didn't know we have the same poison. vodka rules!

Question: Stoli or Absolut? or does it matter?

98% in '85... and my parents were still not happy... sheesh!!!

beautiful is right...she's damn beautiful... just moody is all.

hmmm...

Swit_lass... on a good day.

Im allergy to alcohol drinks. i turn red 4 3 to 5 days. any recomendation 4 me to get rid of the allergy?

bro... just drink the offending substance a little at a time over a long period... you will develop an immunity to it. I had a friend and she was allergic to beer... she would turn red all over from one sip... we just kept giving her beer until the allergy went away... sayang though she looked so cute when she was red like that...

Anyway, my poison... vodka.

complicated

First off, I just want to tell you that none of this is your fault...

L.,

I've no regrets for all that we went through. The good and the bad and all in between. Although the bad is all you choose to remember, I'm here to hold on

to the days that made us smile.

In my heart I will keep those first phone calls and text messages, the first smiles and laughs, our first touch... although they are there with everything that drove you away from me, the good things, the happy things are the ones I'll be treasuring.

I cannot change the fact that now all you choose to see are the bitter memories. But I hold on to the sweet ones, to keep me going. Keep me reaching for that day, the day I will see your smile again, touch your hand, hear your laughter knowing I was what made you happy.

I go through life lonely but determined, to make more sweet memories for you and me...

Love always,

E.

i woke up this morning...

and realized

that i can live alone

i have to

it doesn't mean

i'm gonna stop loving you

or hoping

for the day

we don't have to

be apart

waiting

for you and your heart

to look

at me

tired soul, tired mind, tired body

weary heart, restless spirit

searching for a sloace

elusive

resolute

the will to live must be heeded

but the weight of past wrongs

threatens to k*ll even that

i move forward, alone

on a path towards a future

that may no longer

include you

old navy red plaid boxers

you travel this road alone

you demanded i not follow

i let you go then

to find your own destiny

to follow your whims

know that my love goes with you

even if you don't want it to.

Of all the things I've believed in

I just want to get it over with

Tears form behind my eyes

But I do not cry

Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul

Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old

It feels like I'm starting all over again

The last three years were just pretend

And I said,

Goodbye to you

Goodbye to everything I thought I knew

You were the one I loved

The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes

And it seems that I can't live a day without you

Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away

To a place where I am blinded by the light

But it's not right

Goodbye to you

Goodbye to everything I thought I knew

You were the one I loved

The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time

I want what's yours and I want what's mine

I want you

But I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you

Goodbye to everything I thought I knew

You were the one I loved

The one thing that I tried to hold on to

The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And when the stars fall

I will lie awake

You're my shooting star

why must you forever live with the sins of my past?!

why can't you understand that i love you so much?

how much more do you plan to hurt me?

I woke up this morning and realized I still love you

Just the same as yesterday, and the day before

Despite everything that happened

I still long to hold you

And return to those days

I haven't loved this much before

I feel like Icarus soaring towards the Sun

Will the wax melt this time around

And send me crashing to Earth again?

Max's... just that pure chicken taste man.

a large ribeye steak...

eto... wrestling with my dark side.

- Smoke

- do arnis, karate, and kendo drills

- walk

- go post in the Mail Box

I hope you're happy

Married woman, single lifestyle

I hope you're happy

Daughter left, unattended

I hope you're happy,

Heart broken, man ruined

I hope you're happy

New man, disrespectful pastard

I hope you're happy

Family ruined, Desire fulfilled

I hope...

The day after...

A day that I dreaded to see. I wished last night that maybe somehow, the Lord would come take me in my sleep so I won't have to face today. Unfortunately, I woke up.

I awoke to the truth. The truth of your betrayal, the truth of my inadequacy, the truth that now, my heart is broken... the truth that maybe there is no more hope, and that I'm just fooling myself that things will turn out better in the end.

We are married... I hope that meant something to you... I hope that that solemn promise we made in front of everyone we cared about and more importantly, to GOD, meant something to you. You always said you were a religious person... I guess even your faith means nothing when all you think about is yourself.

I know I've wronged you. But you are such a hard person... you aren't even giving me the chance to make it up.

I woke up this morning... and I was angry. Angry at you. Angry because despite all your protestations and proclamations...despite all your explanations... despite your portrayal of yourself as the suffering wife and mother...all I can see is the spoiled, stubborn brat that you are.

You're having your cake and eating it too. This has to end. I don't want to get our daughter involved in this... but I don't think living with such a self-centred person as yourself...she'll never be taken cared of properly.

Stop deluding yourself. You don't live for others. You are selfish.

It hurts me to say all of this.

I'll stop.

Now.

A large cup of coffee and 3 Winston Lights....

Ok, ok.... that's not really breakfast... but that's what I had.