the assassin

cabin in the mountains, contemplating the beauty of nature, basking in the cool breeze. chilling with like-minded friends.

it felt like never...i felt that god never answered any of my prayers. i didn't ask for anything per se, apart from strength, preseverance, and courage. i didn't always pray for myself - i prayed for others, even for those people who broke my spirit, "friends" who stabbed me in the back, and the girls who broke my heart.

lately, i prayed for answers. answers to questions that hounded, and still hounds me. answers that i can only ask from a wise, omnipotent father. answers i never got, and will never get from, my own father.

i felt that god has always forsaken me. in spite of dutifully following all of the commandments, in spite of internalizing his words, i always see the wicked ones more blessed.

maybe i'm just being blind. but being immersed in a hellish situation since then, it's not easy. it never was. probably never will be. i can only hope things will turn for the better. so far, nothing. everything but bad news. everything but hellish people. every day is mediocre.

but at the same time, i always feel that there must be change. something drastic, something that has to happen. to the world, to society.

whether or not god favors me in this regard or not, i don't know.

dragons. hello brethren.

Namo Amidabuddha

hey, walking dead...

this may be a little asinine, but the TV version of andrea always reminds me of myelen dizon. a caucasian mylene dizon.

nevertheless, i find her character to be annoying as heck. she's like a neurotic mess.

lift weights/practice muay thai pad works

a fine balance of being yourself and going steady/not being overboard in any sense

music

die-cast cars, 4wds, trains, gundams, war/military figures

rough collie (medium coat). very makulit, but very smart. she learns fast, and learns well too.

practicing muay thai.

though i want to learn a complimentary discipline that's more fluid, like tai chi or jkd.

practicing muay thai.

though i want to learn a complimentary discipline that's more fluid, like tai chi or jkd.

magpul masada

barrett light fifty

winchester 1887.

in our house:

calico 9 mm (berretta 92f design)

hk mp5

remington nylon 66 (.22 lr)

glock 18

jericho ("baby eagle")

some other smg (fn 5.7×28)

erma werke (kal 9 kurz)

put bullets in my enemies' heads...

or sleep. maybe sleep.

palipad ng multi-engine large aircraft

ph - societal cancers still plague this country. people are never open to change their maladaptive behaviors. people choose to blame those in power while failing to see that they themselves (the majority) instill and propagate the culture of corruption (kumpa-kumpare, palakasan, kotong and hulidap, masyadong mahilig sa pera, manloloko hanggat maaari, etc)

abroad (first world countries) - high standard of living. if you're not too well off in the philippines, expect to be ghetto abroad. however a more progressive and advanced society and economy is such an attractant. also, the women. they're a lot more awesome than girls here - they're a lot more mature, empowered, open-minded, and they know what they want and more often than not are not afraid to go after it.

well thats my opinion anyway. agree or disagree, respect mine and i'll respect yours.

beat the hell out of a punching bag imagining they're my enemies

hello fellow guitar heads.

anything with a raging bull or a prancing horse. but my mid-term goal would probably be a BMW sedan or something from the a-series of audi.

daily driver - matic.

sunday/hobby driving - either a manumatic or steptronic.

had a chinita teacher in chemistry during college. she was even only two years older than me.

good thing i grew out of it.