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3 in 30 minutes...now I'm hazy with half-drunken stupor...

J, Light, and Ma,

The curse of that day draws nearer. I would like to break that chain this year. Help me, even if I am desperately trying to help myself.

Life is good.

Mahal

Somebody please stop me from rolling my eyes.

It wasn't that one word you uttered that made it precious. It's the progression of actions and reactions I saw and felt, those that we shared, that told me yesterday was a cut above the rest...so far!

J,

Thank you for another peaceful and relaxed weekend. I think that this one is one of my favorites.

Thank you for being so patient with me when I ask so many questions, or when I suddenly turn cold and silent.

Thank you for giving me what I need and not what I want.

A

Ahh, youth -the raging hormones, the blurry perception, the energy...it can be disgusting as it is endearing.

Dear Mai and Ninz,

I've moved on. I hope you can find it in your hearts not to update me about about what's happening over at the hell-hole. It makes me feel almost too sad that I can't take you to where I'm at now. The best that I can do is keep you guys posted, and refer you to my headhunters.

Your Former Lunch Buddy

The figure that will appear on the atm screen on Saturday morning will tell me if the next 34 days after would mean long walks, and budget half-meals. "Brace yourself!", I say.

Right now, I can't believe that I just wished that I looked more Japanese or Korean

' Appreciate having someone post a break-down of updated costs to help me estimate a future trip. (guides, food, fare, souvenirs, etc.)

(Damn, TSB! If you can do cave connection, I'm confident I can do it too )

How to NOT be the perennial fence-sitter...

Ala ba po kayong mga 35-40L packs?

Mga Ateh,

Thank you for teaching me how NOT to:

1. Lead a team
2. Pretend I know everything
3. Be a great trainer

Low-profile-Big-Fish-Waving-an-Invisible-Goodbye

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My New Home,

5 weeks without moolah...this better be for keeps.

Purita 'til September

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Teach,

I told you first.

Emo Girl

The most important decisions in life are often the hardest to make.

Seonsaeng,

I need some perspective..

Chingu

Dedmatology: it's not rocket science. (How come I seem to be flunking?)

Life is all about A.S.S. -

Everyone's either covering it,

Laughing it off,

Kicking it, kissing it, or

trying to get a piece of it,

or simply...

...just being one!

If only I were born less complicated and you less self-absorbed, then we'd be a couple to beat.

Leave it to pride instead of ambition...or even basic courtesy. Nobody can be too busy for just 2 minutes worth a heads up.

J,

Disappointing...

I'm like a headless chicken running about.

J

Dear Rockstar,

You're too high up there already, and it seems that I am trailing farther and farther behind. Your ambition comes with sacrifices that I do not know if I should take part of or endure with you (alone, even). There are times when I realize that I am not as valuable as your ambitions or memories, that I question my place in your life.

What if I suddenly disappear? What if I pretend to move on without you?Will you even batt an eyelash? Or will you pretend that everything is okay, as well. You remember how painful it is to be left behind without closure, right? What if history repeated itself? Could either of us take it, or could we just move along like the rest of the people we abhor?

You will get what you project that want. Just give me until the end of this month to be happy...please. Then, we can really just be friends...no more than that, if that is what you really want.

If you could only take down that high and treacherous wall you have, it would be easier. But for now, teach me how to climb it, else I'll either summit, or free fall and die...

Your Weekend

It has begun...

Talk about it all you like. I ain't budging, nosies.

"Blind" - Lifehouse

I was young but I wasn't naive

I watched helpless as he turned around to leave

And still I have the pain I have to carry

A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time

I never thought we'd be here

Never thought we'd be here

When my love for you was blind

But I couldn't make you see it

Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more than you'll ever know

A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep

Only in hopes of dreaming

That everything would be like it was before

But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting

They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time

I never thought we'd be here

Never thought we'd be here

When my love for you was blind

But I couldn't make you see it

Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more than you'll ever know

A part of me died when I let you go

After all this why

Would you ever wanna leave it

Maybe you could not believe it

That my love for you was blind

But I couldn't make you see it

Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more than you will ever know

A part of me died when I let you go

That I loved you more than you'll ever know

A part of me died when I let you go