Writings of the Heart

[PROJECTCADMUS]

gloomy wheather make me feel blue!

[glyr]

Tulog na... Hayaan na muna natin sila...

[sensible33]

ℓσνє уσυяѕєℓf fιяѕт тнєи тнαтѕ тнє тιмє тσ ℓσνє ѕσмєσиє єℓѕє

[shhhhhh]

You know, it has been how many months and I haven’t forgotten about you. Not even once.

I thought I could get over you now that you’re far away, but I guess I held on.

I chose to wait for you even though I know deep inside, what I’m doing only makes me more of an idiot.

I chose to remember all the hardships, and instead of forgetting about them, they became my reason to continue chasing you.

I keep thinking “What if he actually did like me?” “Should I just give up?” “Why can’t I give up on you?” “Am I stupid enough to accept the truth and still fight?” “Was there never a chance?”

 

So many questions, but not once have I received an answer.

I want answers because maybe they would help me move on.

But I can’t ask. I can’t know. Because I’m afraid that I’d get hurt more than I already am.

I’m scared that I’d still choose you despite everything.

I’m scared of what would happen next after finding out the truth.

I’m not even sure if I would actually be happy that I would finally be able to let go.

 

As much as I would like to blame you and your mixed signals, I can’t.

Because it’s not your fault right? It’s all my fault. It was always my fault, am I right?

Wrong. If only you told me the truth from the beginning, I wouldn’t have gotten close.

I would have been able to stop myself from falling for you even more.

I would have been able to prevent the heartache and awkwardness that came after finding out the truth.

I would have not cried myself to sleep. I would not have bothered you and tried my best to convey my feelings.

But, I admit, I am also to blame for a lot of things.

I know that there was no chance, still, I gave every ounce of effort that I can offer.

I wrote letters even though I shouldn’t have.

I admitted my feelings despite the fact that they would probably just be neglected, ignored, or even thrown away.

I allowed myself to know you more. And in the end, look where that got me.

 

We’re both at fault. But, why do feel like I’m the only who made a mistake?

Why is it that every time I talk to you, I feel like I’m annoying you?

Why is that every time I try to get close, you walk farther away from me?

Why is that every time I make an effort, I feel like the distance between us is just growing?

Am I supposed to feel this way?

Is this a punishment for breaking the hearts of others? If it were, then I guess I deserve it. Despite that, it still hurts.

It hurts to move on, and then realize that I can’t.

It hurts to keep going forward, then suddenly get pulled back.

It hurts to like someone who appreciates my effort, but still can’t seem to feel the same way.

It hurts to see you happy even though I know that you should be.

It hurts to know that you’re sad and I can’t even do anything about it.

It hurts that I still want to get close even though I know it’s impossible.

It freakin’ hurts, you damn idiot. And to make things worse, I still like you despite the pain that I feel.

Is this pain a sign that I should just give up? Am I really ready to throw away the two years of waiting?

Is it really not worth it like I thought it would be?

-from Thought Catalog

[glyr]

Hearing your voice, seeing your face, staring at your eyes, feeling your presence, saying my name.... Makes it all worth it.

[shhhhhh]

"Sana'y ibigin mo ako kasama ang aking mundo."

[Guest k E i J i 👻]

You know I love you, you know how much I love you.

Why not me? 😞

[HotFatChick®]

Letting go is just another way to say I will always love you.

[d i e g o]

when something bad happens, you have three choices:

you can either let it define you.

let it destroy you.

or you can let it strengthen you.76

[IgniT1on]

May tao talagang sobrang special sakin pero hindi naman kami ☺️.

Edited July 6, 2018 by Romant1co

[Ava of Imperial]

Changes in my life

[shhhhhh]

How to be brave?

How can I love when I'm afraid to fall

I have died everyday waiting for you

I die each day waiting for you

[n70]

i loved and my heart got hurt

i loved and my wallet got burnt

i loved and off she went

wtf am i saying? LOL

[d i e g o]

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[bumblezoid]

let go and let GOD