CYNARA

i have one rule everytime i enter a relationship.

"don't ever try to cheat on my back, my instinct will never fails me, or else i will get even"

i preffer matangkad t leat 5'10, payat (i hate maskulado and mataba), any complexion wag lang super putla at super itim, syempre gwapo , mabait at mahal na mahal ako, kelangan my car, bahay at big savings account. hindi lang ako ipokrita, i just don't go with the mabait malambing echusa echusa. but i don't call myself as gold digger or parasite because i know, me, myself work too hard for me to obtain what i do have right now. ang point ko lang alangan ako pa magbabahay sa knya, alangan ako pa magpapakain sa knya, i don't give excuses for mahirap mahirap, because if you really determined to have what you want you'll have it of course.

 

Sasabihin na "upo ka and relax...let me make you dinner"...

gagawin nilang lahat para lang makitang masaya ka...yung ganoon.

It makes me want to become a better person, better wife, better lover.

 

ah, that is nothing compared to my current bf. ang haba ng pasensya nya sa tantrums ko. para akong bata mahirap pakainin if i don't like the food he'll cook for another one. 3 dishes na naluto nya and still i don't wanna eat pa rin kahit sinusubuan na nya ako. the thing na nagpakapagod sya and i don't even know how to appreciate it. yung iba ngang nakakakita naiinggit na sila. pero iba pala gusto ko. someone who can tame me and not someone who will always follow on what i always say and want.

*1st love ko, kausap ko lagi sa ym nasa ibang bansa.

*college bf ko sa SLU my work na and happy as an actor of stage play.

*HS X-BF ko married na nasa hawaii

*yung isa busy managing their business, la pa rin daw ako kapalit

*the other one who was head over heels with me dati nasa canada, regaining his new life daw, i was shocked when he called me his ok.

*my newly X-bf because we broke up 4days ago, ayaw ako kausapin. super sama ng loob nya talaga

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really dropping my bayantel dsl na this month kasi i pay 1.6k for 512kbps wherein i can get it at globe or smart at 999. yesterday i was pissed off again half a day no dsl connection

huh?! ako pa! it's his lost! :boo: pero lahat ng lalake sa buhay ko begged me to stay.

before the break up umiinom kmi eh... nung cnabi... hug ko cya mahigpit while crying, begging to change her mind... ayaw... punta cr... iyak, suntok sa pader, iyak, suntok sa lapag, iyak uli... for 2 months... then 6 months bago nakapag move on....

 

ngaun single uli hahaha and basag ang bones sa right hand ko, or inde pantay hahahah

ganito rin nangyari unang break up namin. sinuntok nya pader pumutok yung kamay nya at nabalian sya. and lumabas ako called up my friend, sinundan nya ako nag-agawan kami sa cp kasi kala nya lalaki na naman kausap ko. then afterwards ang kapal ng mukha at pinapahilot sakin yung daliri nyang nabali, eto na naman ako kahit muntik na magpatayan, balik na naman sa dati, naawa ako eh.

then yung last the other night, iyak ako ng iyak na sana he'll let me go na. then nagpaimpake ako sa maid ko punta ako baguio. galit na galit pinigilan nya ako ng sobra, halos di ako makagalaw pero nagpumiglas tlga ako. at nakarating ako baguio ng dis oras ng gabi. tumawag sya kagabi na parang walng nangyari at pinapauwi na nya ako. that bastard! lintek parang yoyo once you throw out the more it comes back.

Hindi kaya ng baby mo na lumayo sa yo...but he's hurting...obviously you're the cause of all his pain , he's miserable and you know that very well. Question is...kaya mo bang layuan sya?...gusto mo ba? if your answer is a yes...then what's stopping you? Oh girl...don't be selfish...have a heart for the poor baby...leave..set him free.http://www.gifszone.com/content/icon/mini_icons/mini_icon_352.gif

Para di OT...yes and i feel half the pain everytime.,but a girl's gotta do what she's gotta do.

i want to set him free na. as in i always flirt around sa phone pag anjan sya. for him to know na di ako dapat mahalin. katuwiran nya mas nangingibabaw pa rin good aspects ko. pero like what i've said para syang yoyo. once you throw, same impact pa rin yung balik nya. alam mo pag niyayakap nya ako lalo ako nakuknsensya. kasi alam ko so pure yung love nya sakin.

but i can't force myself to love him as i love my 1st love. at 100% alam nya yun. if there's one thing na maaappreciate mo sakin. i'll be always honest kahit my nasasaktan ako. nabasa pa nga nya signature ko.

nasasaktan din ako para sa knya kasi whenever i said i love you, sinasagot nya ako ng hindi totoo yan :cry:

siguro this is love wala kasi limitation ang love eh, lahat pede mainlove kahit mali.

potekkks!kagabi nagloko na naman bayantel internet. pati costumer service 30mins atang naghihintay ako ng sasagot.

wala?! :evil:

but recently di na ako masyado napuputol, kasi nagrequest ako for downgrade from 512kbps to 256kbps. mukhang natakot ata kasi nagagalit ako lagi sa phone. :boo: as in hinde makapagsalita yung costumer service.

coffee bean the best pa rin sakin. not too sweet. sa starbucks, matamis masyado. i always request less sweet pa. unlike coffee bean, tama lang.

green tea ice blended my fave coffee :cool:

i like lechon macau sisig of tiannamen :cool:

my current boyfriend who stays martir. he is here lying beside me, and i know he is teary eyed again. why? because am chatting with my honey who is miles away.

gusto ko syang pakawalan, ayokong maging madamot sa knya but he preffers to stay. alam kong sobrang nasasaktan na sya sa pagka blunt ng pinapakita kong atensyon sa honey ko. ayaw nyang mawalan ng pag-asa na magiging kanya pa rin ako. but ilang beses ko sinabi sa knya na mahal ko sya but i love my honey more.

naaawa ako pag nakikita ko syang umiiyak sa tabi. i know he have done so much favor for me. nagpaparaya sya kahit masakit para sa knya. kinausap ko na sya na layuan na nya ako but he can't.

natatakot na ako sa sarili ko. ayokong maging sakim at maramot sa knya kasi alam ko hindi sya pedeng maging masaya sa piling ko kasi nakakulong ako sa isang walang kamatayang pag-ibig sa ibang guy who is apparently married.

kahit hindi nya mababasa to paulit ulit akong humihingi ng tawad sa kanya. hindi ko ginusto na saktan sya. in fact minahal ko din sya yun nga lang mas mahal ko yung isa. he's too nice and i can't find no reason to hurt him like this. baby am so sorry for giving you burdens. :cry:

nahihirapan na rin ako. ayoko dumating time na i need to choose, baka wala na akong gusto mawala sa dalawa.

am so honest about sa kanilang dalawa sa isat isa pero still nobody wants to subside. ako rin i wanna drop off the other one but parang yoyo the more na babato mo the more na babalik :cry:

i asked my friends and GOD about this pero wala akong makuhang magandang sagot :cry:

DAHIL IKAW

Sa piling ba niya ikaw ay

May lungkot na nararamdaman

Damdamin mo ba'y di maintindihan?

At sa tuwing ako ang nasa iyong isipan

May nakita ka ba na ibang kasiyahan?

Nandito lang ako

Naghihintay sa iyo na mapansin

Ang aking damdamin

Na para lang sa iyo...

Dahil ikaw ang sigaw ng puso ko

Ikaw ang nasa isip ko

Ang nais ko ay malaman mo

Na ikaw ang tanging pangarap ng buhay

Pag-ibig ko sa iyo'y bibigay

Ang nais ko ay malaman mo...

Na mahal kita...

Sa piling ba niya ikaw ay

May sakit na nararamdaman

Damdamin mo ba'y sinasaktan

At sa tuwing ako ang nasa iyong panaginip

Na tayong dalwa'y masayang magkapiling

Sana'y pagbigyan ang nadaramang ito...

Sana'y masabi mo na mahal mo rin ako...

Dahil ikaw ang sigaw ng puso ko

Ikaw ang nasa isip ko

Ang nais ko ay malaman mo

Na ikaw ang tanging pangarap ng buhay

Pag-ibig ko sa iyo'y bibigay

Ang nais ko ay malaman mo...

Na mahal kita...

ito kasi yung soundtrack ng "SA PILING MO" yung teleserye nila judy ann, mejo nakakarelate lang ako kasi i am madly inlove with someone who is already married. that somehow am hoping katulad din kami ng teleserye that will end up sa isat isa. because i strongly believe in whatever feelings i do have for HIM same with HIS love for me. kasi alam ko sobrang tibay nung reletionship namin.

If You're Not The One

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?

If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?

If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call

If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings

But I know you are here with me now

We’ll make it through

And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand

If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?

Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?

If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?

If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?

If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away

But I know that this much is true

We’ll make it through

And I hope you are the one I share my life with

And I wish that you could be the one I die with

And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with

I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand

If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am

Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away

And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today

‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right

And though I can’t be with you tonight

And know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand

If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am

Is there any way that I

sobrang ganda ng kanta para sa love ko to

pizza, grapes and sisig plsssssssssssssss

hotshots the best pa rin

hard liquor

gatorade...

kare kare

juice-mango

soups- crab and corn

babyruth

sisig po

coke

mahiga

am still a QC peeps

keyboard, mouse and my cp