Laclie

so far..di pa naman eventhought there were really times that i wanted to

but my pride got a hold of me.. and im not sure if i need to be thankful to that or not

i remember before w/ my last bf (exbf)

wala pa kaming one month, grabe na kaming mag away to the point na nakibreak sya agad sa akin

i was really hurt knowing hangan dun lang pala kami.. i dont want to give up just like that.. its too soon

but then ayoko naman ipilit ang sarili ko sa taong hindi ako gusto o ayaw na sa akin

days come by i tried to kip my distance from him evendo i really miss him so

there were really times that i really wana beg for him to take me back..to give ourselves another chance kaya lang knowing him.. i know the more naipilit ko ang sarili ko.. the more nya akong hindi kakausapin.. so i just waited for him..hoping inside that he will come back to me

and he did after almost a week

the second time that we broke up..sa kanya pa rin galing

he was in jedah.. were having troubles in communicating..i cant afford to always call and text him

i dont know if i did beg but i just told him that i admit it was my shortcomings.. i just had some problems and i will make up with him then we survived it again

the third and last time.. ako na ang nakipag break

after knowing and after he told me that he was falling in love w/ someone else

he love and need me no more

and eventhough in those times that i still love him so.. i let him go.. i didnt beg..

but the fact is... i took me almost 2 years to really let go

no way..

make it never

im a one-man-woman and i expect the same

nearest chapel..den pray..talk to myself and to God

movie house..watch a movie alone or with a friend

( i choose comedy or fell-good movie para matawa or matuwa naman ako )

plaza (g3 sa may benches).. stroll with a frend then talk about anything

He did..

most recent was my dream job..

it took me almost 5 years of waiting

but i dont mind coz its worth it

and im very happy and contented w/ my job now

for my other prayers

i dont mind waiting again

coz i know in due time..

i will have it and much more

just keep the faith!

hope nothing

yet hope still..

he fell in love with his chatmate..an ex officemate ( in our previous company )..

matagal na pala but hindi nya sa akin sinabi agad

nabasa ko na lang sa status nya nun minsan nag uusap kami sa ym na

nami-miss nya si "other girl"...

it was his way of breaking me the news na

nagmamahal na sya ng iba.. ng higit sa pagmamahal nya sa akin

i felt betrayed..he betrayed me.. they betrayed me..

maybe longer that i thought..and with others things na hindi nya na sinabi sa akin

in my heart i tried to fight for him but he's no longer mine..

so i let go evendo in those times..i still love him so

den after that...marami pang nangyari..

now after almost 2 years.. magkaibigan na lang kami

"gusto ko ng magmahal.................

................................................................................

............. ng iba"

Profession : Graphic Artist ( Advertising )

Age : As of press time im 26, feel like 20 look like 16 hehehehehhe

Location : Makati

School : Ateneo de Naga University

Course Graduated: AB Development Communication (DevCom)

bad may it seems but "anger" helped me in forgeting "running away" from my past love

its not easy to let go and to "stay away" from som1 u truly and deeply loved and cared for

esp if that som1 told you that he found someone new..and no longer wanted you

i accepted that painful reality.. i cried a river..its not only my heart that was wounded

but also my soul..

but as i try to keep myself sane and intact

something happened.. he did something "awful"..

that not only hurt my heart but moreso my pride..

then i was provoked..

at first i maintained my distance and peace

but i had enough and the devil in me fight back..

aside from i deleted/ cut all communication/ means that i had with him

..i deleted his mobile num

..changed my sim.. ym id and put him in my ignored list ..block his email address..

..i even changed my home address (transfered to a new plc) and my career (work)

i wrote him a "hate" letter... things that he did in the back of his current gf

and i gave his gf a copy of it.. and also to some of our common friends :evil:

from then on... he realized that i have no intention of doing any monkey business with him

im no martyr..nor a fool

i have my limits.. evendo i still love him that time..i also love myself

i know when to fight and when to let go..

and my pride helped me to move on..

my anger serves as my fuel to ignore the good and happy memries that we had

and lastly time healed my wounds

now l..its been years.. 2+ years to be exact

and weird it may seems but we are friends now

and his getting married by this year to his current bf ( not the girl that replaced me hehehehe )

unfortunately or furtunately for me

until now i haven't found the one that i can love again

but i trust my fate..

i know.. somewhere.. somehow.. in someway

i will find someone that is truly meant for me

enigmatic

webcam pix..

http://i21.photobucket.com/albums/b266/simply_lilac/young_laclie.jpg

baby pics :boo:

honestly

even in my younger years... i cant imagine myself living in other land/country

but as time goes by.. having the dream of providing a good life to my family..to my mom

(if given the chance) im willing to spend some years working abroad

(esp now that im still single)..and only go there to WORK and SAVE money

but living my life..rising my child.. growing old.... will always be here in my country

despite of everything.. economic crisis..poverty..simple life... still,

this is my HOME

where my heart and my soul

belongs

take a walk..visit the nearby chapel..be alone and pray.. talk to myself

listen to music.. watch a movie.. alone or with friends

go to powerbooks.. read some books

dance like crazy while alone in a room... den wen im tired..sleep to my heart content..

open my eyes?

joke... ..well aside from that

i usually

search for my mom and kiss her.. on her cheeks or smack on her lips

and most of the time... were having a battle against it

shes trying to hide her face from me coz i havent brush my teeth yet hahahahahaha :boo:

but den she fight me for long so she just cover her nose and take my kiss

afterwards

i den check my cp for the time ( coz im not wearing a watch )

get my towel and head for the cr to take a bath

simply enigmatic