simplelass

nasa province

the 0nly thing that  wanted t0 tell y0u is clear y0ur mind first, give y0urself a little time na magkar00n ng 0ras para sa saril m0 g0 0ut relax then pag clear na ang pagiisip m0, then malalaman m0 din kung an0 ba talaga ang nangyayari say0 and whats the best thing t0 d0..... 0therwise, mahirap mag isip pag magul0 ang utak.... its hard t0 m0ve 0n but there's n0 0ther way...... s0rry......

i myself came fr0m a breakup per0 im 0k n0w.... i was t0tally devastated that tme per0 when i accepted the fact na wala na talaga ...... then ikaw na magisa ang ag let g0..... g00dluck!!!

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yeah i know. pero sa situation ko kasi, ang hirap manghula kung ano talaga reasons. i dont know kung totoo na pinagpalit nya talaga ako sa iba. kasi hes the sweetest guy for me eh. i cant imagine na gagawin nya yun saken. despite the fact na ako pa lang napakilala sa friends and family. even his friends say, ako lang nakilala nila.

nagtatanong sila saken bakit ngyari yun? at di ko sila masagot kasi ako rin nabigla. kaya for me sa ngaun its really hard to accept the truth. reality bites nga siguro. masakit magmahal.pero mas masakit yun iniwan without even saying goodbye di ba?

yes, i did it. he broke up with me w/o any good reason. reasons that i can't understand, just because of petty quarrel and a little misunderstanding. i cried so hard and begged so many times. but his decision was firm. he told me that it's too late. just recently we're inseparable and so mushy. i thought we're moving on w/ our relationship but he opened up again about the break up. i was so shocked , i can't accept the reality. it hurts me so much and until now i find it really hard to accept the fact that we can't be together anymore because of the nonsense things. i love him so much that's why i did it. last night same "breakup topic" again and i ended up crying out loud. im really hurt coz i love him and i can't afford to lose him right now coz he's everything to me. honestly he's the one who makes me happy and served as my inspiration but he told me last night that why should i continue our relationship if he's also the reason why i am crying.

we almost got involve in an accident coz i grab the steering wheel while he's driving. when we reached their house, he accompanied me to the street where i can take a cab but i refused because i'm not feeling well . i told him to bring me home but he insisted that he can't do that because i didn't get off his car when we're already there in front of our house. he said it was my fault. he got mad and left me while it was raining so hard . i got soaked in the rain because he left me and drove away because he has an appointment up north.

i was left inside the compund, crying. he called his brother at home and told him to accompany me. i know that was so stupid, to beg for his love but i can't help it. im deeply inlove with him. the other day i asked him if he loves me and he said he can't answer that question. but last night he told me he's still inlove w/me, that was the truth he said. but, i realized maybe it was his pride and ego that's keepin' him away from me. and that he can't give me another chance to prove my undying love for him. i know this is the craziest thing i did for my bf but im not ashamed . im not yet over him...

'til this moment i'm really confused...

i keep on thinkin' about him...i keep on askin myself what went wrong? we were so inlove with each other. i already met his family, relatives and close friends. he often take me whenever there's an occasion and what hurts me most was the fact that few days ago we're still cuddling, kissing and holding hands...but now it's over.

its hard to move on...