Hellmarch

I met the her on the worst time of my life

yung tipong sabi ko last na talaga.

i work as software engineer. grabe ang stress sa field na to. so ayun may katrabaho na nagayaya . tapos na addict sa mga spa mp. pero dumating yung point na nakakasawa na. and plan ko na din kasi mag asawa that time. that was November 2018.

kaya sinasabi ko stop na.

and then tska ko pa nakilala yung pinaka magandang thera na nakita ko.

that time parang halos everyday other day nasa spa ako para lang sa kanya. feeling ko may diyosa akong kasama, ewan sobrang lakas ng dating niya sakin.

to the point siguro kung naniwala lang siya sakin na gusto ko siya before and pumayag na maging kami. baka naipagpalit ko siya sa GF ko sa kanya. i started bringing food. giving her small gifts. basta maramdaman niyang special siya sakin.

ramdam ko din kasi yung sincerity sa kanya na talagang no choice siya kaya andun siya, at pinaparamdam niya sakin na i was special.

and then raid happened. ( Thank you again Lord about this ) dapat magpupunta talaga ako ng oras ng mismong raid. then production Release so i had to cancel that time and work overtime.

tapos yung tanging contact ko sa kanya which is her mobile number confiscated. nawalan kami ng contact sa isat isa. then after sometime. nagtry ako sa midas cainta. luckily yung nakuha ko pala close friend niya. eventually nagkita ulit kami.

after ilang months ng di naman pagkikita dun ko na realize na parang mahal ko pala talaga siya.

we started seeing each other again. until she got pregnant. ang swerte ko din hindi niya ako pinilit or pinaako na baka ako yung possible nakabuntis sa kanya. kasi nga may BF din siya, so dahil nga dun we decided to stop seeing each other.

kaso ayun siguro dahil sa pandemic nakipagkita ulit siya. ang hirap umiwas sa totoo lang at lalo hinahanap ko din talaga siya. i have my own family now. ang complicated na ng lahat.

ngayon we decided again to stop na. para na din sa kanya kanya nmn family. kaso ang hirap parin talaga.

ang masama pa is ako yung hindi maka move-on.

while siya masaya na buhay niya. ang sakit sobra.

The one that got away ika nga ni katy perry.

what kind of desperate loser falls in love with a whore. that's disgusting

 

I find amusing really... What the duck are you doing in this board any way ? Just to fck girls and thinking you are the king of the world ? In the first place it's disgusting if you have to pay if you are so good then what the fck are you doing here ?

 

These girls are human too who gave you the right to judge them and the guys who fall in love with them

 

You are an idiot if you don't even converse with one or probably a robot

 

Sundot kalimot style this is disgusting because you have to pay just to get laid

Loko pinsan ko 10k daw rate sa sir william amf pero dito Sabi Wala pang 4k

Should I give up or should I keep chasing pavements even if it leads nowhere?

 

Am serious...

Love is to let go it's just funny that after she dumps you she would say I miss you to make things worst right ?

Here is my take maybe a bit short this is kinda impromptu

 

I know that what we have is nothing at all but at times when we are together we both feel the sense of awkwardness about showing our imperfections

 

Sometimes there would be a moment of silence because of that awkwardness

 

Ive never felt this before

I want you to understand that I am not asking to be a part of your world

 

 

 

The only thing am asking is for you to see that what I mean is true that I love you

 

But right now I don't think you even feel it you are still caught up by your past when I am already thinking about our future I guess am just two steps ahead

 

So bummer

Ung rebound ka Lang pala Ang masakit dun pinerahan ka pa

The love of my life everything else comes next ...

 

A restaurant of my own hehehe

Binalewala nya ako dahil sayo

 

Ang hinihiling ko Lang wag mo naman syang saktan Kasi Kung sasaktan mo Lang din sya sa huli maari bang akin na Lang sya ?

 

Ang swerte mo na sisirain mo pa

Ako nandito na inayawan pa

Ikaw nandun ikaw pa Ang hinahabol

 

Minsan talaga Ang pait ng buhay

 

Buti nalang may pera pang tabla sa nadurog Kong puso

I'm often in the background. Seeing whatever you let me see. Doing whatever you let me do. And it burns through me like ecstasy. A drug I want to have all the time. It's the only thing that makes me whole, makes me sane. And I would be more than willing to repeat it if that's what you want. But the other side of me says this may not be how it would end. Should we go that route, I just have one request.

 

Please don't treat my heart like it never existed.

 

Qft same thoughts exactly .

Depressed right now

Ako nalang Ang bibitaw samin dalawa Mahal Lang Kita pero kailangan ka nya

Crazy as it may seem or am just delusional do you even fcking care ?

There was never an us anyway

Perfect song for GM's who falls in love with a thera

 

Ngumiti kahit na napipilitan

Kahit pa sinasadya

Mo akong masaktan paminsan-minsan

Bawat sandali na lang

Tulad mo ba akong nahihirapan

Lalo't naiisip ka

Diko na kaya pa pa kalimutan

Bawat sandali na lang

 

 

At aalis magbabalik

At uuliting sabihn na

Mamahalin ka't sambitin

Kahit muli'why masaktan

Sa pag-alis

Ako'why magbabalik

At sana naman

I'll do everything just to be with her. But for her I'm just a nobody.

Same situation except am just a client

I love you

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Your money

Minsan di mo nakikita NASA harap mo na...

 

Ganun talaga ung taong Mahal mo Ang Mahal eh sya ...

At this point the only thing my heart can write are the words I love you even though I don't know your real name

 

As crazy as it may seem this is what I feel and it's not just a game

 

 

My thoughts as of this moment

That I wasn't good enough for her

everyday is painful for me even on sundays

And why is that ?

 

 

Back to topic

 

It's the thought of losing you and your not even mine yet... That's what hurts me

Bakit ako takot mawala ka eh Hindi naman pala tayo

Takot ba akong mahalin ka o baka namanntakot Lang ako masktan muli

Because she doesn't love me anymore . . .

Die a litlle