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    The Mail Box

    in Art and Literature

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    Good morning!

     

    It's 6 am and I kiss you before I leave. A ritual that is fast losing its meaning, but something I am not willing to let go.

     

    I step outside the door without looking back, without saying anything. I so want to talk to you, but I'm in a rush and you're so engrossed in what you're doing.

     

    It hurts me to see you now, reduced to a shadow of what you were before. As to why you changed so much I cannot fathom. Or is it just me who changed?

     

    I loved you very much, I still do, I always will.

     

    I used to think the sun and moon rose and fell on you. When each success I have is made more special when acknowledged by you. Not so long ago, every word you uttered I took as gospel truth, when every advice you gave, I carefully weighed and usually, heeded. There are so many great things that happened in my life all because of you… and I will be forever indebted to you because of them, of your love, of your trust.

     

    But time has a way of changing things… of changing us…

     

    Now when you talk, I find my mind wandering. I feel awful that I am not as interested as I should be when you speak about your day, your plans, your writings, the people you meet… I also do not want to share with you the events in my life, in fear you wouldn't understand and you'll get angry while I remain silent in deference to you but not really agreeing to your views. I miss the times we could converse and exchange views freely. I miss you and all the things we used to do together. But it is so difficult to cling to the reasons that held us together, to close the gap between the two paradigms we live in.

     

    We can no longer go back to what we were before, but I will remain yours, forever your little girl...

    The Mail Box

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    not orig but....

    MEANTIME GIRL

     

    She's the one you call when you're bored or

    sometimes when you and your significant other

    had a fight because she makes you laugh. She's

    the one you talk to when you're feeling down

    because she's willing to lend an ear and be a

    friend. She's the one you spend time with between

    buddies, before you find "The One". You know the

    one who hangs around in the meantime.

     

    She's too laidback, too easily amused by the

    same things your male buddies are amused by.

    She's too understanding, too comfortable.She

    doesn't make you feel nervous or excited the way

    a "real woman does. But she's cool, nice, funny

    and attractive enough that when you're lonely or

    horny and need an intimate female companionship,

    she'll do just fine.

     

    You don't have to wine and dine her because she

    knows the real you already. She's not easy, but

    you know that she cares about you and is

    attracted to you, and that she'll give you the

    intimacy you need. And you know you don't have

    to explain yourself or the situation, that she'll be

    able to cope with the fact that this isn't the

    beginning of a relationship or that there's any

    possibility that you have any real romantic

    feelings for her. It won't bother that you would text

    her sometimes just to say not to text you because

    you're with your girlfriend. She's just sooo cool?

    why can't all women be like that? But deep down,

    if you really think about it (which you probably

    don't because to you, the situation between the

    two of you isn't important enough to merit any real

    thought), you know that it's really not fair.

     

    You know that although she would never say it, it

    hurts her to know that despite all her good points

    and all the fun you two have, you don't think she's

    good enough to spend any real time with. Sure, it's

    mostly her fault, because she doesn't have to give

    in to your needs --- she could play the hard-to-

    get b***h like the rest of them does, if she really

    wanted to. But you and she both know that she

    probably couldn't pull it off. Maybe she's not really

    your type.Whatever the reason, somehow life has

    given her a lot of really great qualities but has left

    out the ones that men want (or think they want) in

    a woman. She's just too thoughtful. She'll

    sometimes buy you things you need; she'll

    sometimes buy you or cook midnight snacks for

    you and personally deliver it in your place. She

    wants to be special to someone, too. We all do.

    She has feelings. She has a heart. In fact, she

    probably has the bigger heart than any woman

    you've ever known because she's had a front-

    row seat to The Mess That Is Your Life, and she

    likes you anyway. She obviously sees something

    worthwhile and redeeming in you because although

    you've given her nothing, absolutely no reason to

    still be around, she is. She's just your convenient

    excuse to fool around.

     

    Anyway, yeah. I'm a Meantime Girl. I don't know

    the reason, really, and at this point I don't even

    care. I just want to let every guy to know who's

    ever had the good fortune to have a Meantime Girl

    that we may be a lot of fun, but we cry too. A lot.

    And someday we won't be around.

     

    grabe, ang sad talaga nito...

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