NoodleMaker

nung college, dalawang profs ang pinagpantasyahan ko.

1. prof sa programming fundamentals. matangkad, may katawang pang-model, makinis at maputi.
2. prof sa financial management. petite, cute, chubby na hindi overweight, morena beauty

During high school, yes.  lalo na pag nakakuha kami ng leakage ng exams.

Nag kodigo na rin ako nung final exams, muntik pa ako mahuli.  Kaya sabi ko "next time wag na"

College days 100 daily, kasya na doon ang parking, gas, at pagkain

plain Black coffee, no cream and sugar.  Preferably House Blend, or any medium roast by starbucks

napaliit ko tyan ko with a combination of

1. exercise
2. alcohol reduction
3. increased sleep
4. intermittent fasting
5. modified my diet to eat only veggies twice a week - without rice

sadly nag-plateau na ako so may konting body fat pa rin.

Michael Phelps

for me, after office hours. pang de-stress. tapos pagod na sa workout, mas madaling makakatulog sa gabi

anybody here knows a gym with a swimming pool where I can do my laps?  preferably Makati, Mandaluyong, BGC area. thanks all.

already done, magandang experience, my parents pushed me to take one.  the most challenging part wasn't the number of cases we had to solve, it was time management and working with group mates to solve a case.  what added to the "suck factor" was the lack of pretty ladies in all of my groups.

400-500 pesos for a week. pinapagkasya ko na doon ang parking, gas, toll fees at pagkain.

take note this was way back during 1990s, when parking fees were only P10 per day, a burger at the cafeteria cost me only P15.  toll fees noon mga P2.00 lang. or kung gusto ko magtipid I'd use public transportation, mura pa noon ang LRT at jeep. 

late 40s.  

finance guy.

worked in Europe, Africa, Middle East at Singapore.

1. black coffee from starbucks or Mister Donut

2. kapeng barako

still don't know what I want in life

Lots of people say I am easy to get along with pero introverted talaga ako. I hate being stuck in traffic or in a crowd. I hate small talk.

I only have a few friends.

IT consultant ako pero gusto kong maging piloto

Meron na akong iba.

Pero deep inside yung aking TOTGA girl, I'm not over her.

have to admit I screwed up big time.

Di ko alam kung asan sya. Huli kong pic na nakita ay yung profile pic nya sa viber. she looks happy. mukhang di na rin active ang number na yon panigurado she wants to move on.

100% mindf*ck

kanina pinamigay ko na sa charity yung mga damit ko na binili nung magkasama pa kami

legs and butt

Yes,

 

Promised her that id always be by her side no matter what happen, then i left without saying goodbye.

Me too. did it to an ex. worst thing I ever did. biggest mistake of my life. i wish i could take it back.

yung macyadong hayok na magpakasal

Doesn't matter to me. Mas gusto ko nga ang hindi na virgin para walang inhibitions

Hi everyone, sorry for this long post pero wala akong malabasan ng sama ng loob.

I was in an LDR with this beautiful, highly accomplished woman. Incredibly sexy, both physically and intellectually, especially since she’s 10 years my senior. we met at work but then it would take some 3 years before we came to know each other. things went on and she became my gf. the conversations were great, and so were the sexcapades.

She was the only one who was able to stimulate me intellectually as well as sexually.

I then moved overseas and we continued to have an LDR. we would meet in Singapore or HK for a few days just to keep the LDR going. and I would spend some nights at her place whenever I went home for the holidays. sometimes she’d spend Christmas and New Year’s Even with me and my parents. And man, those were the best times!

I always looked forward to our conversations, even if it meant having huge cellphone bills. I imagined her every time I go to sleep. the thought of being reunited with her during my holidays kept me going.

but there came a point when I had to choose between continuing the LDR or finding someone new. If I choose her then I won't be able to have kids. since she’s older it became inevitable that as the years passed she won’t be able to bear any children due to her age. besides, I’m not getting any younger, I’m in my 40s now. Not to mention the huge f#&king social pressure to get married and have kids. so I decided to stop fighting. I had to break things up as gently as I could.

I feel guilty that I may have taken away her only chance to have a family of her own, and I left her when she needed someone the most. sometimes i feel sorry for myself, sometimes I feel pathetic. I recently went home for the holidays, tried to wish my ex a Merry Christmas but she just chose to ignore me. and that’s when it hit me: I never should have let her go.

I should have stuck with her. I never should have left her alone. sometimes I would wish that I could re-do everything again, and if it happens, things will be different. I’ll probably pop the question sooner. I’d go against my parents and the rest of society’s pressures. I should have treated her better. I’d fight for her more. I wish I could do these things, but I can’t.

Now I recently found someone new, but even when I’m in her company all I could do is think of my ex. I would daydream of her whenever I drive back home at night - dangerous when you're driving at more than 150kph. Even in the presence of my friends and family, I feel so alone. when I make love with my gf now, it’s just not the same mind-blowing sex that made me glow in the end. Sometimes I would look at her photo in my laptop, it’s one of those photos that I took of her in Ocean Park HK. She was wearing a red sleeveless shirt, tight jeans, her hair tied in a perfect ponytail, incredibly beautiful.

kung kelan hindi na kami, this is when gusto kong paikutin ang mundo ko sa kanya. Why did I make that f#&king mistake? What the hell was I thinking? Was life abroad too comfortable for me to go home and spend more time with her? why wasn’t I strong enough to fight for the relationship? Why did I allow her to be the one fighting for us, instead of us fighting to keep the relationship alive? What the f#&k was I thinking?

There’s a verse in a song that says - in effect - that it’s better to be alone if you can’t have the woman you love. now I know how it feels. I feel like a part of me died, that I will never be complete, and things will never be the same.

and to make matters worse I’ve been frequenting massage parlors and girlie bars just to get laid. I would search for the girl who closely resembled my ex’s physique because I want to relive the same intimacy that I had with her. I know I should stop because of all the money I’m throwing away, not to mention the danger of STDs. and even worse: I contemplated suicide. I imagined myself writing a note, telling people who found me to mail the note to her. imagined myself holding a gun to my mouth and pulling the trigger.

masyado bang ma-drama? too much wallowing in self-pity? Eto ba ang plano ng Diyos, na dapat ipaghiwalay kaming dalawa and let me end up with someone else? Or I’m probably punishing myself too much. Right now I just feel too pathetic. Probably the reason why I wanna keep working abroad is because I'm running away from this, or that I'm scared to suddenly bump into her. I'm probably just trying to escape the fact that she's gone... and it's my fault.

again guys pasensya na, thanks for your patience with my post. I couldn’t talk to anybody about this - not even my family and closest friends - and this is the only outlet that I know. it is during these times when it’s easier to talk to strangers than to friends.