Fallback

i got shitzu...

the wake of my recovery...

When you came into my life,

you breathed a new passion into my soul.

You gave me a reason to face

and conquer each day with purpose, confidence.

You excited my heart and my need to love-

and I did love . . . you.

My world grew bright with all that was you

and my everything became you.

But with no warning or backward glance

you blackened my existence with your retreat-

Into another's arms.

I felt I couldn't breathe without you.

You left me with no defense. No understanding.

Left to stumble and learn to live my life

alone, without your passion and "love. "

Time crawled when helping me to mend

my shattered soul.

Every step I made toward recovery filled

me with hate and distrust.

Bitterness.

Gone was the hope and faith. Replaced

hollowly by fear and rage.

In the wake of my recovery I left many

broken hearts. As you left mine.

After many horrid mistakes I slowly came to

realize what I should have known before.

The passion we shared, the love we had-

wasn't because of you.

It was because of me.

When with you, I wasn't myself.

And I fell.

With my new realization I began a true

recovery- discovery of the beauty within me.

Much time later I can smile at our good times

and leave the pain felt behind me.

I have blossomed into myself. I'm surrounded

by those that truly love me.

Now that you see my newfound independence

and security, you want me again.

Suddenly you see that all you've ever hoped

and wished for is within me.

But with the pain you caused, you taught

me something else.

Self-worth.

I love myself.

And you don't deserve me.

Goodbye.

if life sucks... how can u live it to the fullest!?

just go with the flow...

if life sucks, then live it to the fullest...

deal with it although it is hard..

got no choice..

life is s**t, unfair and full of pretentions..

life sucks!!

Moving on but not letting go

I've had enough.

No, don't try to reason with me, this is too much.

I will try not to think of you when I wake up in the morning and ask myself if somehow you are also awake. I have my own life to lead and my own life to think of. No, I won't even think of you while I'm eating my lunch wondering if you're doing the same thing, because sooner or later I know you will.

No, never again will I go to the comfort room and lock myself in just to have some privacy to piteously think of you, cry, sing or do some silly things because of you. And no, never will i again think of you last when I go to sleep. Sleep is my only rest, so please don't plague me in my dreams.

I am moving on.

I'll try to wake up in the morning and smile and think not of why you left but that once you stayed.

And if I feel the need to cry, it will not be for the future that we could have, not for the regrets that I have nor of the anger that i feel, but I will cry because of a love that I never was able to share with the one woman I felt it for. I will cry for the love that was lost, and not for the woman who left.

I will give my affections to any woman who is need of it, but not my heart because I still am trying to get it back from you. I will give her the love that you never wanted, the kiss that I so longed to give you and the words that once was yours. Worthy or not worthy of it, at least he's here, you're not.

I'll try to hold back the tears when I think of you. I'll just try to smile.

I am moving on.. and hoping that the next thing would be letting go.

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pag mabait ayaw din..

e potah!

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