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arep1632

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  1. At this moment, I am feeling a sudden melancholy.

    I usually feel this whenever I remember something happy but too sad that it can't happen again but also feel this whenever I sad, when I am stressed and depressed. Is it because of work? Is it because of family? Is it because of relationship? Well I don't know. I am most of the time a happy person but yeah I know I am also prone to be lonely stressed and depressed; but not in a suicidal way (this is impossible because of my pain tolerance). I can say I am a successful person, I was raised right by my parents, I have a very caring family, a loving mother, my siblings are getting along well, dad is ok. I also have a nice relationship; I have an intelligent, beautiful, lovely and well educated girlfriend. I also have a good job, just a few months or years Ill earn my promotion. Well you may say I am living a good life, but still I can say I am not happy. My heart is being torn into pieces when my father will still go back to their old habits with the devils around him. it just breaks my heart whenever I find put about it or just notice it with his actions. I wish they would still change and forget about it but its just a dream that I don't expect to become a reality. As I have said earlier, I have a good job. I am working so hard because I would want to have a very nice future; I am working very hard so that in the near future I can provide all my families needs specially when I get married and have children. I wanted to provide them the best life I could provide; also I would want to make sure that I am earning enough to support my parents and of course my wife's parents as well. I am getting a lot of duties and responsibilities but I just feel it is taking a toll on me. I wanted to pursue this because I know its the only way that my dreams would be possible. I have mentioned earlier that am in a relationship, well I am happy contented; however I still feel there is something lacking... I have a very ideal girlfriend; she is smart, beautiful, well mannered and educated. I know she loves me and I love her as well but I still want to ask for something. Though we are in a relationship, we seldom talk... Whenever I tried to talk to her, I always get her at a bad time. Its may be because I really caught her at a bad time. Well yeah I believe that but what saddens me is that I feel her work is much more important than me; yes I do get the point that we must work for our own future but it doesn't mean that we will be like this; we seldom talk, see each other and go out and date. Well I know she loves me and I lover her too but I wish more of her presence; I wanted to feel her, I don't want to have a relationship that looks like we became a such because we just have to. I am really not the type of person to bug you about it but I will just wait because I am good at it; specially right now since I know you are in a crisis right now. Well I might be saying all of this because I am suffering depression but yeah I will not commit any stupidity. Its just I am sad...

  2. Hi everyone,

     

    This is a little something about me:

    1. I am a simple and quiet person but I get along with others just well.

    2. If I want something, I will work hard for it.

    3. I am a flirt and I am a horny person but my self confidence on this matter is very low ( torpe ako)

    4. Trust, promises and my word is really something to me.

    5. I am reliable and dependable.

    6. I am helpful and a cheerful giver.

    7. I am a homebody

    8. I love to cook

    9. I am extremely sensitive (for a man) and am a hopeless romantic

    10. I love to read books

    11. I prefer a quiet place rather than malls and clubs ( I have anxiety towards noise and crowd)

    12. I don't smoke and occasionally drink.

    13. I keep my word.

  3. Things are not working out between us... We have a lot of differences and lagi nalang tayo nagaaway, so it will be better if we set each others free. I love you but I must let you go, not because of third party but simply because its not working out between us. I want to be fair to you.

  4. My definition of maganda (chinita or bilugan ang mara but with innocent face), parang hindi marunong magalit. Laging nakasmile at masaya, simple lang ang kaligayahan, pino at mahinhin (wife material kung baga), I preferred nurse, doctor or teacher ( not because of the profession per se but because the of the trait of their profession like hospitable, maalaga at maalalalahanin), will never miss a day na kamustahin ako, will not get tired saying I love you, tapat, nakakasakay sa mga kagustuhan ko, child like but not childish... Siguro kung may ganito eh wala na akong hahanapin pa

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