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I danced with my CAT officer, very beautiful and sexy...haha, oh did I say I'm a COCC back then. I also got to dance with the very first girl who rejected me...sweet memories...good times

That is also what got my confused, my girl also never asked money from me nor does she asks me to buy her this and buy her that. The money I lost are mostly on spending going to her place of work and expensive hotel bills.

 

Although I am in a confusing situation right now, I still give her the benefit of the doubt. She gives time to me. Calls me often. Gets upset when I dont text her. Always wants us talking at late nights before she goes to sleep. Typical things GFs would do to their BFs. These acts of her are what's keeping me downplaying thoughts of her using or abusing me. That is why I am always in deep thoughts that maybe, she is real to me. I am clinging to that thought and hoping. Sad to say, I am caught between leaving and staying. I want to stay because I love her. I want to leave because I love myself.

Sabi nga isa kong kaibigan...hangga't kaya pa...hangga't pwede pa...

"I was thinking last night...is this real? Me and you and what we have real? I don't know the answer. All I know is that am truly in love with you...Am not sure if you also call some of them baby...am not sure if you always txt them of where you are or what you're doing as you do me. Am I the only guy in your life? Am I the most special? I almost cried...I can't answer myself...I'm not sure..."

clients do "fall inlove" with PSPs mainly because of physical attractions. most of the clients hurt PSPs and leave them behind. sad but true.

i would agree with you ma'm on your first point. always starts with the physical attraction/friction. and yet this can evolve into something more romantic...not advisable, but who are we to defy a wonderful feeling of being loved and falling in love in return?

I am glad that I found this thread. It is so pretty hard to keep the emotions all by myself. I have no one to talk to and I feel lost at the moment.

 

My situation started when I started to frequent this establishment that offers excellent service of relaxation. Before going to this place, my life was wonderful. I have a nice job, time all for myself, I even have ample time of sleeping. I am also involve with this girl I met four years ago. She has a decent work and should I say, she is someone worth introducing to mama. Everything was ok with my life until I went to this establishment. It was an accident that she was assigned to me. She was not really my choice as I am fully aware of her superstar status in that place. Many men go nuts over her, thus I try not to avail of her service. Accidentally, my preferred lady has to take an early off from work so I have no choice but to be handled by her. The service was kind mediocre, I never enjoyed it but she was so nice and sweet. Indeed I had a girlfriend experience with her. On my next visit I took her again and again and again. Suffice to say, slowly I fell in love with no matter how I stop myself from doing so.

 

And so we become a couple. However, certain circumstance keep coming as I get to know her even more. In one instance, jealousy is killing me when I learned of this guy who was also her guest. And then there was another guy. I seem to be just ONE of the MANY. I confronted her and she reassured me that all these gentlemen are mere suitors which she does not entertain. I gave her my trust and hoped she is telling me the truth. But then, things are not just easy to hide, I learned something about her, particularly her true relationship with guest no. 1. I thought I had enough so I went to the place to break up with her. The minute I gave her my evidences, she hold me so tight and begged me not to leave her. She asked for time. But since I am already in a situation that leaving her might hurt me also, I gave her that chance to fix herself up. Weeks passed and she narrate to me a news that she has broken up with guest no. 1. I was happy like a kid who got his first bike or so I thought. The coming days were disaster. Though she said they have broken up, I always have this instinct that I am being cheated. Until I found it myself. I went to the place to visit her, since I got a call from a friend, I remained in my car. At the side came parking guest no. 1. He went inside and so I timed his visit, it was almost one hour when he left. As soon as he backed his car, SHE came out and was waving him goodbye. This scene instantly broke my heart and I stayed in my car to cry. She made me believe they were no longer together, but the scene I saw was a picture of a happy coulple. Soon after she noticed my car parked outside and she came rushing inside, grabbed her phone and called me. She asked if it was me parked outside, I said yes. She asked how long was I parked, I said, long enought to witness how you break my heart. Immediately she came rushing out of the place and entered my car. Gave me a hug as she cry and explained her side. I wont listen, I wouldn't believe. But she wanted me to believe her reasons, but it was just too damn hard to believe.

 

I love her I have to admit. I lost time for the girl I was dating, she was nice to introduce to my Mom. I lost a lot of money. I had lost time for myself. I lost a lot of sleep. Unfortunately, I am still with her. And although I knew she just continues to fool me, I am still here. Call me stupid, call me freak, I just cannot explain now what is goin on inside my mind right now. Why I am still with her, I dont know. Maybe I am just too afraid of being hurt if I leave, but I knew I will only continue to be hurt if I stay. Many friends have already adviced me to leave her and bring back the old me. I never listened because I am so drowned in loving her. Do I ever feel her love for me is true? I dont know. Maybe I am just too numb to even feel it. Blinded by illusions of her and me together in a relationship frankly I dont know how will it ever fair.

 

Where do I go now all depends on me know. Last night, I went out with an ex-GF and narrated to her my story. Unexpectedly, she gave me the BEST advice and I sure do wanna give it a try.

 

Thank you for taking time reading. I just wanna bring this out of my chest.

sure this is hard bro! fukc I almost cried...I know you just want to let it go... I know how you are feeling right now, am so familiar with the pain, the restlessness. I am still.

And yet, like you, am holding on...just like you, how I wish I never came to know her.

Your story bro, and most of our brothers here can be summed up by a short dialogue between a man and the moon, read this almost everywhere, so cliche as it may sound, but this is very true....

One night, the moon said to me, 'If she makes you cry, why don't you leave her?' I looked at the moon and said, 'Moon, would you ever leave your sky?

Fukc, my tears are flowing now....

Sad, indeed...

to be selfless and at the same time selfish. labo no...

Said this to my baby...

"I have never loved and wanted anyone, as much as I have loved and wanted you..."

Bro, you're so right :thumbsupsmiley: :heart:; in the movie the female character Latika left her live-in partner when she saw that Jamil(the film's SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE) is already winning in the gameshow Who Wants To Be A Millionaire?!

 

It shows the sad fact :grr: :thumbsdownsmiley: that you really need cash in order to change her "destiny." Malaking pera din ang 20,000,000 Rupees especially in this current global crisis.

Guys I will disagree with your interpretation of the movie, there are numerous times where in Latika wanted to be with Jamal (no millions yet), particualrly where in she got a scar on her face when she flew away to meet Jamal in the train station, but her lover's goon got her.

This is really one of the most inspiring and touching love stories I've watched. As their dialogue goes--- Its called destiny...

Of course, its given that poverty is the focus of this film and yet being the hopeless romantic that I am, it feels like am watching Titanic for the nth times.

Jamal winning lots of money was just icing on the cake, Latika defied odds several times just to be with him.

busy ka ba? hell yeah, ill be spending most of my time with you if I'm not

what do you mean style ng pag activate?

he might be reffering to unbricking. Basically, you need itune and internet connection.

How's the battery life? I read that, if you regularly use the apps, battery life is only half a day.

been downloading loads of apps and games and since my iphone is knda new, am really stuck with it. My baterry life usually lasts for a day or two. So I think it'll get better once I stop playing those addictive apps and games.

I got my apple iphone 3G (8GB) last Wednesday, I upgraded to iphone plan 2199 fom my GFlex 1800 which I had for almost 4 years. Am lovin it. This is my very first apple/mac product.

TO be brutally honest, my N95 is way better with functionalities and yet I love the hype of the Iphone. Gwapong gwapo, chicks magnet.

By the way this phone is not for txt craze Pinoys, sorry to say.

GI-NEB-RA! GI-NEB-RA! GI-NEB-RA!

hahaha wala lang. good luck sa barangay mamaya.

In Mark we trust! :thumbsupsmiley:

Alexander the Great, the Best!!! :thumbsupsmiley:

MGE and Reno taxi parehong OK...

yung ibang taxi, minsan kukuwentuhan ka ng hirap ng buhay, kung magkano na presyo ng gasolina, kung mag kano mauuwi nya sa family nya...halos lahat. Pero OK lng sa akin, I tend to listen to them and as much as possible, nagdadagdag ako lalo na pag mabait ang driver, plus 30-50 pesos.

Merong driver na laging nag papalatak, tsk tsk...hehe yan pag ganyan..walang dagdag. mangisay sya... hehehe :goatee:

gusto ko muna mag isa...

tapa king... hahaha ok din sa rodics :thumbsupsmiley:

fries ng mcdo, burger ng jabi :thumbsupsmiley:

go ginebra!!!! :thumbsupsmiley:

haha might sound as the gayest thing ever, pero ok ang the notebook for me, after watching it, i became a die hard rachel mc adams stalker...

the search is over by journey... haaayyy, memories

so, ano tayo?

might sound corny, but I always remember the song we used to share. every word stays and the melody lingers. pain is unbearable. But as the song goes, I'm letting the pain remain...forever...

well just like men, women have free will, so whenever a woman sleeps with you for what ever reason, may it be love or money..just one thing...wag mong bibitinin!!! :thumbsupsmiley:

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