gardeningmomma

i walk around naked when no one's home hehe. masarap eh.

not really a fan but i liked:

across the universe

the long and winding road

yesterday

last goodbye (jeff buckley)

never. nakapag-joke pa nga ako eh lol. i did ask for closure though.

internet

games

food

i don't really like their styles. but whatever floats your boat, i guess.

lifetime by maxwell

maxwell's pretty wings

toothbrush

lipstick

powder brush

powder

blush brush

blush

lipgloss

hand sanitizer

hand lotion

lip balm

and i think i have a hair clip in there but not sure

need you now (lady antebellum)

glasses. i don't think i can ever wear contacts. i don't have the patience to maintain them.

leaning towards no. i think a fling kasi, in some way, there's a bit of consistency there kahit papaano to categorize it as a fling. even if it's all just physical, there are certain expectations pa din. i'd much rather move from one person to another if i'm not really ready for a relationship.

but in general, if it works for other people, i'm happy for them. hehe.

someone once told me he thought i was too much of a people pleaser. it's not something he hated- just that he wished i would tone it down because he knows that quality usually lands me in compromising situations i could have avoided had i mastered the art of saying no.

;D

i played the sims 3. hehe. exciting no? after that, i pretty much moped, bummed around. then i went out with a friend, a girl friend and she slept over. but yeah, nothing big, nothing "girl power-ish" whatever. i thought about having a one night stand but i chickened out and a friend was trying to set me up but it was all too soon.

it's amazing how a breakup can change the way you look at things.

i haven't had sex in months now. and there was a time before when i didn't have sex for a year. so kaya naman talaga magkontrol.

my ex is leaving soon. i don't get in touch with him anymore. we just broke up so yeah, i still think about him practically day and night.

to be honest, if i were a guy, i wouldn't dream of being with a virgin for the long haul. when i was with my ex (he was my first), the only thing i could think about was how incredibly unsatisfying it is, how boring it is, to have slept with only one man. we don't talk about it but we're so curious about how it feels like to sleep with other men. even if i didn't cheat on my ex, had i stayed with him, i probably would have cheated on him over and over again. you don't want someone who settles with you just because you're her first. you want someone who's tired of games and have learned so much from her past relationships and is woman enough to say that "hey, i'm done having fun."

i usually wear dresses when i'm out with my bf. i like being girly eh haha. when we first started going out though, usually jeans and pa-cute na top. siyempre, mahinhin muna kuno.

been wanting a tattoo. right upper back sana. yun lang haha. sana di ako ma-addict. i want cherry blossoms.

 

Sorry guys but in my personal opinion I think California is soooooooo over rated! It's a nice place but it's not really THAT nice especially in the point of view of people siguro na nakatira na talaga overseas!

 

hmmm...some places in california talaga aren't at all that nice, i'll give you that. i live here but when i first came din, i was like, uh, that's it? however, up in the north, there are some really nice areas there. san francisco for one is just lovely. santa barbara too.

but i suppose if you compare it to other states, like the ones in the east, yeah di talaga super ganda. part of the reason why those areas are very pretty is because they actually do have 4 seasons there. sa california, socal in particular, it doesn't really and even fall- di masyadong colorful. hindi masyadong breathtaking kasi. saka ang california kasi is so big and when you travel by car or bus, madalas you're surrounded by deserts, mountains. para kang in the middle of nowhere.

read. it's more fulfilling.

nyu. but i hear that they're not very good with scholarships and stuff. dunno if that's true.

blue! mas nagugulat mata ko eh. mas madaling mag-recall ng mga kung anu-ano kapag blue, pansin ko lang sa sarili ko.

kami noon walang masyadong maraming exams. what we had were thinkpieces and papers and recitations. so puro ganun. the most unforgettable experence i had- 3 papers including a revision ata for some parts of my junior year thesis, due on the exact same day and my computer crashed. eh i already had about 5 pages done for each paper, mga ganun at di ko nasave. buti na lang i wrote down some stuff din. eh gabi na yun haha. the next day, 7am pa lang ata nasa school na ako, typing away but the night before, di na ako natulog because i was writing everything. huhu. sumakit din kamay ko nun at sabog talaga ako.

my bf is in his 40's and i'm in my 20's. i agree- people look talaga. but it's fine. ok lang. i'm no longer offended because i know naman that whatever it is they're thinking, whatever bad stuff that's going on in their heads, is just a reflection of how their own relationships are. i mean, people who are content with their own lives wouldn't have the time and energy to diss others eh.