ravenreigh

i saw you today. finally had the strength to ignore you. you tried to talk to me... wondering why i'm so cold lately... you should know why...

 

i really love him. i now realize that i can't risk losing him because of you... because i really love him.

 

let me be happy. don't complicate my life with your i love you's. let me be with the person i truly love.

 

stay away.

I can relate to this...... :cry:

Dear IKAW,

Hindi ko ginustong maramdaman ito at lalong hindi ko inakalang mamahalin kita.

:cry: OO, MAHAL NA KITA! Pero paano mo malalaman, paano ko ipararating sayong MAHAL KITA?.Nahihirapan ako sa tuwing makikita ka. Naguguluhan kung paano nangyari. TAMA KA!, pagsisisihan ko nga ang naging desisyon ko noon. SANA palahindi ako naging TANGA sa nararamdaman mo, SANA hindi kita pinabayaang mawala at SANA naiparamdam ko noon na mahal din kita. . Pero sa isang banda alam ko na TAMA pa rin ang ginawa ko. TAMA ng ako ang nagtiis, TAMA ng ako ang nasaktan. :cry:

Hindi madaling tanggapin ang sitwasyon natin ngayon, pero alam kong walang ibang dapat sisihin kundi ako . AKO ang UMAYAW at AKO rin ng UMIWAS. Pero sino bang mag-aakala na darating tayo sa ganitong sitwasyon, sa puntong MAMAHALIN KITA AT LALAYUAN MO KO :cry:, Wala di ba? Naiintindihan ko, bakit mo nga ba ipagpipilitan ang sarili mo sa taong naging manhid sa nararamdaman mo? Pero sana maintindihan mo rin ako?

Alam kong hindi ka apektado sa mga nangyayari dahil para sa iyo naging laro lang ang lahat. Ang hindi mo alam ang larong yon ang naging dahilan ng PAGLUHA KO. :cry: Gusto kong kalimutan ka, pero paano? Paano ka lilimutin kung sa bawat araw na lumilipas ikaw ang hinahanap at sa bawat pagpatak ng luha ko'y ikaw ang dahilan. Paano ako magiging masaya kung sa tuwing makikita ka'y KASAMA MO SYA at paano nga ba tatanggapin na NAHULI KA NG DATING AT AKO'y GANUN DIN........?Ngayon sabihin mo sa akin,hindi ba tama ang naging desisyon ko ? Dahil kailanma'y HINDI PUPWEDENG MAGING TAYO.......... :cry:

Nagmamahal,

AKO :cry:

" Maybe it's worng to say pls love me too

Coz I know you'll never do

Somebody else is waiting there inside for you.

Maybe it's wrong to love you more each day

Coz I know she's here to stay

But I know to whom you should belong ":cry:

TEXTMATE

My cellphone's beeping sound woke me up one night. Used to receiving

important messages only, I grabbed my cell and sleepily pushed the keys

and read the message.

"Hi there! Care 2 b my txtmate?" Not knowing who the sender was, I deleted

the message right away and placed the phone on my bedside table, I tried

to go back to sleep.

I had just closed my eyes when I heard the message tone again.

"Hi there, again! Care 2 b my txtmate?" again, the message said.

"Who the hell could this be asking for a txtmate at the wee hours of the

night?" I asked myself. Again, without bothering to reply I deleted the

message.

I was never a 'textmaniac' - someone who enjoys texting anyone and

Everyone even at the wee hours of night, not to mention during the day. My parents,

who were always out of the country forced me to own a cellphone. They told

me that having one was more convenient - they could monitor me even if

they're miles away.

I wanted to turn the unit off, but since my mother was fond of calling me

at night, just to check if I was safe at home, I decided not to.

Just as I was to close my eyes and return to my dreamless sleep, the phone

beeped again.

Same number...Such determination!

Pls reply 2 dis msg & b an angel & save me frm dis abyss of emptiness!!!"

I never knew why, but the message struck me. I got up and pushed the

keys...

I just realized I was replying to the message.

"Im not an angel, n f u want som1 2 save u, m not superman... I'm just a

simple prson who u wake up at dis r of my nyt!!! Nway, do I know u?" I

typed.

Seconds later came the reply.

"Nope. U don't know dis lonely soul. Nor does she know u. But I want 2 b

ur frnd. I'm Mikaella Cervantes. U?"

"Just call me Julius. How'd u get my no.?" I sent back.

"Hi Julius, nice 2 meet u. Just shuffled the last two digits of mine," she

replied.

That was the first and maybe the last time I met someone over the

cellphone.

We exchanged messages and learned so much about each other that night. We

only said goodbye when my alarm clock rang at 5:00 AM! I had to prepare

for school!

And that was also how it all started. A day would not pass without it

loving and thoughtful messages from her. It was only then I had learned to

appreciate text messages and become eager and excited everytime my phone

beeped, hoping it would be her.

Mikaella brought out something about me that I never knew I had; I

realized I could also be a romantic person... even if it's just through text

messaging.

"Keep me as a frnd & I will keep u in my heart. Lock it up & throw away d

key so dat no1 can evr tke u away from me..." One day, she sent this

message to me.

I replied: 'In life, we seldom find a true prson & f u evr find 1, hold on& nvr let go... value dat prson coz it's lyf's gift worth keeping & holdin

on..." I never knew why, but her response sent shivers to my spine, " Value d

pipol hu hav touched ur life bcoz u will never know just wen dey will walk out

of ur lyf & nvr come back again."

I couldn't understand what I felt that moment, but one thing I was surethough... I could not go on a day without a single word from her. I'd

become used to having her, eventhough we had not met personally. But truly, she

already occupied a space, a large one, in fact in my life.

texted her back. "Dont come close f l8r ull jst pass by; don't touch me

f l8r ull jst let me cry; dont luv me f l8r ull jst leave me and won't stay..."

I didn't know why I sent her that message, but somehow I felt, every word

came from my heart. In the short span of time we were sending messages to

each other, I knew, I was starting to keep her in my heart.

I called her once. The voice on the other end was like an angel's. Soft,

kind, full of love. Yet, there was something in it I couldn't define. We

only talked for a few minutes. Before she hung up, she told me not to call

again. According to her, it would be better if we would just text each

other.

But the voice kept ringing, not only in my head, but in my heart, I'd long

to hear it once more. I tried to call her again, but she never answered

the phone. She just kept on sending messages and quotations, which I copied in

a little notebook. Hopeless romantic? I didn't know. All I could say was

that all the messages she sent me were wonderful, they came from the heart and

cut through the heart.

"Though we r miles apart, u r always n my heart. I close my eyes & der u

r. Even f I'll see u never, I'll always b hir 2 care 4 u, far longer dan

4ever..." One December night, she sent me this message. By that time we had been exchanging messages for more than a month. God knew how happy I was.

She was right. Although we had not seen each other, what we felt was

enough to make us both realize what was keeping us together.

I sent her another message, "

"How I wish I cud really tell u how much u mean 2 me, but m afraid 2 love,

scared 2 get hurt... I hope dat u will wait 4 me & pray dat u will not get

tired of loving me...=)" was her reply.

And then I replied again. " The reason y I met u is bcoz of destiny but f

destiny will suggest dat I'll live w/o u, den, I'll lie not by destiny but

of free will."

Whenever I asked her when we would meet personally, she always answered,

"Soon...soon, love...soon."

Not seeing each other did not lessen, even a bit, what I felt for

her...rather, it even grew deeper and stronger each day. And I was sure,

she felt the same way, too. Love messages continued to flow through our lines,

between our hearts, which made us go on each day with the thought that

sooner, we would see each other, face to face, heart to heart.

Just a few days before Christmas. She stopped sending messages. At first I

just though she had ran out of prepaid. but there was something that kept

bothering me... I couldn't understand what was it, but it made me fell

nervous. I tried to call her but she wouldn't answer. Nevertheless, I

continued sending messages

Suddenly one night, just three days before our Lord's birthday. I heard my

phone's message tone again... at last! It was from her!

"Oftentyms we say gudbye 2 d 1 we luv w/o wanting 2. Though dat doesn't

mean dat we stopped loving dem or we stopped 2 care. Sometyms, GOODBYE is

a painful way 2 say I LOVE YOU."

I was dumfounded. I didn't know what to think of. What did she mean? I

texted her back, searching for answers, but found nothing. I called her

but she would not answer.

For the first time in my life, I felt so miserable...desperate... empty. I

idn't know what to do. I didn't want to lose her. I had learned to love

her. And I wanted to be with her forever.

The following days I felt nothing but emptiness. It seemed that Mikaella

took the life out of me. I missed her so much...her messages...The tones

that would tell me she'd sent another loving message. Nothing around me

could feel the emptiness I felt.

Tut...tut...tut...tut...tut...just a day before Christmas, my cell beeped

again. It was her!

Meet me at d caf¨¦, 10 AM 2day," I read aloud, making sure the message

was true, then I jumped with joy upon hearing from her again. Hurriedly, I got

myself ready and I went to the mall. I knew it was still early, but I

wanted to be there before she arrived.

I arrived at the meeting place ten minutes earlier. I was surprised to

see her already there, smiling at me. She was very beautiful, Black, deep-set

eyes that spoke a thousand words; small, kissable lips; a nose perfectly

chiseled and long black hair - everything in her was beautiful. And yes,

her eyes radiated kindness and love...but there was a flicker of something

in them...sadness?

"Hi, Julius," said the angelic voice I had been dreaming of each night.

The voice that I had waited to hear for so long. "Please sit down."

"I am very pleased to meet you, Mikaella," I said, as I took my seat and

gave the roses I brought for her.

"Thanks, Julius," she smiled, obviously pleased with the roses. I knew she

loved pink roses.

"You are always welcome, Love"

"Julius, I can't stay," she said, sadness in her voice, or was it tears?

"I really must go."

"But we just met, Mikaella. Can't we talk a little longer?" I asked,

pleadingly.

"I can't really. I just came here to see you and thank you for the time

you shared with me. Thank you for everything, Julius. I will never forget

you...you will always be here in my heart." She was looking at me straight

into the eyes, and I could really feel the sadness in her voice and I

swear, there was something in her voice and I swear, there was something in those

lovely yet lonely eyes...

She got up and smiled at me, lovingly. "Tomorrow morning, please come and

visit me," he said and gave me a piece of white linen paper.

I read what was written and when I looked up, she was gone.

The following day, Christmas, I woke up early and excitedly readied

myself, thinking of her. I hurriedly went to a flower shop and bought a dozen pink

roses - for Mikaella.

They lived in an exclusive subdivision. Upon reaching their house, I told

the guard who I was and that I was looking for Mikaella.

The guard stared at me, sadness and amazement in his eyes and told me to

wait as he called the owner of the house. As I looked at him while he was

going inside the house, only then I noticed that the house was brightly

lit.

A woman went out and walked towards me, smiling sadly.

"Hi, I'm Maria, Mikaella's mother. Please come inside, Julius." While we

were walking towards the mansion, she explained to me why she knew me very

well - Mikaella had always been talking about her friend, Julius. I hardly

understood what she was saying. I was busy thinking why Mikaella's mother

was crying while talking to me. As we came near the great hall of the

house, it dawned on me that there was a wake inside, Maybe, a relative passed

away, I thought. But deep in my heart, I was trembling and afraid.

As we entered the hall where so many people were silently mourning while

others were praying, shaking, I asked her mother. "Where is Mikaella?"

She held my hand and silently, led me to the coffin which was surrounded

by flowers - pink roses, nothing but pink roses.

No words could explain how I felt when I gazed at the coffin and saw who

was lying there. The same beautiful girl I met..

A man came beside me, I knew he was Mika's father.

We are so glad you came, Julius. Mika talked of you all the time. She

even

asked that her phone be buried with her. She said that in that way, you

could still send her messages and you would always be with her."

I couldn't believe everything...My mind was in limbo.

But how can this be? We just saw each other yesterday."

"That can't possibly be. She passed away three days ago. She had been

suffering from a heart disease since she was a child," said her father.

"But..." I couldn't find the words to say.

"She told us not to bother reaching you, "her mother said, still in

tears," she said you will come, and here you are.

Pain and bitterness overwhelmed me. I cried silently beside her, staring

at her lovely face, memorizing every line of my friend's face, a face I knew

I would never forget while I was still alive.

After the internment that afternoon, I went to the chapel she had told me

she went everyday.

Sitting there praying and crying to God, I held my phone and typed "U

taught me how 2 care; u taught me how 2 b kind; u shwd me how 2 lyk som; u shwd me how 2 luv; but ders 1 thing u didnt teach me & it hurts mor - u

didnt teach me how 2 let go. I LOVE YOU"

I sent the message, and though I knew she wouldn't be able to hold her CP

again, I knew in my heart she would get my message. I never expected a

reply, yet as my phone beeped again, I felt a shiver down my spine. The

sender's number did not appear on the screen, and tears rolled down my

cheeks as I read the message.

"Let go of d hand of d prson u love, but dnt let go of God's hand. 4 if u

hold 2 his hand. He may b holding d prson u love n d ader hand 2 let u

hold each other again."

"I will never forget you, Mikaella and I will never let go..." I vowed to

her and to myself as I left the church.

Sometimes we think that the one who just come along our way

is the one who is "THE RIGHT PERSON" for us.

But the truth is, he's just another reason and "the ONE"

who'll take us away from the person we truly love

Maybe, it's wrong to say please love me too

'Coz I know you'll never do

Somebody else is waiting there inside for you

Maybe it's wrong to love you more each day

'Coz I know he's here to stay

But I know to whom you should belong :cry:

To RC:

I know it's not right, But I really have to....

I have to keep my distance and sacrifice our friendship

To keep my self from not falling unto you.

I'm sorry............ :cry:

complicated question.

 

the thing is could you really stay out of the way. di ba we become stupid when we are in love?

 

pero as usual there is always a limit to this stupidity. (good thing)

 

so you could just simply stay out.  the "how" question is difficult. pero when you reach your limit you will stay out or else you haven't reached your limit yet.

Nice adv! CUT THE COMMUNICATION!!! --- just like what I did (and it works)

Sorry, wrong qoute

complicated question.

 

the thing is could you really stay out of the way. di ba we become stupid when we are in love?

 

pero as usual there is always a limit to this stupidity. (good thing)

 

so you could just simply stay out. the "how" question is difficult. pero when you reach your limit you will stay out or else you haven't reached your limit yet.

Nice adv! CUT THE COMMUNICATION!!! --- just like what I did (and it works)

One of my fave....

"Let Me Be The One"

Somebody told me you were leavin’

I didn’t know

Somebody told me you’re unhappy

But it doesn’t show

Somebody told me that you don’t want me no more

So you’re walkin’ out the door

Nobody told me you’ve been cryin’

Every night

Nobody told me you’d been dyin’

But didn’t want to fight

Nobody told me that you fell out of love from me

So I’m settin’ you free

[Ref:]

Let me be the one to break it up

So you won’t have to make excuses

We don’t need to find a set up where

Someone wins and someone loses

We just have to say our love was true

But has now become a lie

So I’m tellin’ you I love you one last time

And goodbye

Somebody told me you still loved me

Don’t know why

Nobody told me that you only

Needed time to fly

Somebody told me that you want to come back when

Our love is true again

[ref then bridge]

[bridge:]

Just turn around and walk away

You don’t have to live like this

If you love me still then stay

Don’t keep me waiting for that final kiss

We can work together through this test

Or we can work through it apart

I just need to get this off my chest

That you will always have my heart

It's for you, RC :cry:

I LOVE YOU, GOODBYE

Wish I could be the one

The one who could give you love

The kind of love you really need

Wish I could say to you

That I'll always stay with you

But baby that's not me

You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you

Promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do

Oh I could say that I'll be all you need

But that would be a lie

I know I'd only hurt you

I know I'd only make you cry

I'm not the one you're needing

I love you, goodbye

I hope someday you can Find some way to understand I'm only doing this for you

I don't really wanna go

But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do

You'll find someone who'll be the one that I could never be

Who'll give you something better

Than the love you'll find with me

Oh I could say that I'll be all you need

But that would be a crime

I know I'd only hurt you

I know I'd only make you cry

I'm not the one you're needing

I love you, goodbye

Leaving someone when you love someone

Is the hardest thing to do

When you love someone as much as I love you

Oh I don't wanna leave you

Baby it tears me up inside

But I'll never be the one you're needing

I love you, goodbye

Baby, its never gonna work out

I love you, goodbye

My favorite line in the song HOPELESSLY DEVOTED....

My head is saying fool forget him

My heart is saying don't let go

Hold on to the end, that's what I intend to do

I'm hopelessly devoted to you

it's for you RC

To RC,

I'm beginning to LOVE YOU !!!!! :cry:

Tumigil ka sa KABALIWAN mo!!!!

having tattoo is cool and cute wag lang malalaking tattoo untidy na tingnan (in my own opinion)

having tattoo is cool and cute wag lang malalaking tattoo untidy na tingnan (in my own opinio)

Maldita :evil:

Adobong palaka - taste it when I was in pangasinan

Inihaw na butiki and Adobong pagong..... Gamot ng tropa ko, napagtripan ko lang tikman....

Boy: Czyle Allyn, Czryle Annio Mark

 

Girl : Czarisse Reign, Czarelle Anne & Raven Reigne

or RAZEL MAYE

Boy: Czyle Allyn, Czryle Annio Mark

Girl : Czarisse Reign, Czarelle Anne & Raven Reigne

a nature lover, friendly and charming but dangerous that's a TAURUS GIRL.

I'm sorry, but it didn't work