angelique

down low - r.kelly

blanket.

n95

mon loup,

i was okay... with our set-up before... status: "officially dating" and nothing more serious than that... up until now, despite me asking you and you telling me (i love you, i need you because i love you) i still cannot fathom why you asked me to be your woman, when all that time you knew that you were technically still with her... even if she's no longer here... even if it's been how many months already... i really wish that you tied up all your loose ends first... before asking me to be with you.

because honestly, i was perfectly okay - with how we were... before you said 'i love you'

i never thought that those 3 words, coming from you, would make me feel a sense of trepidation... but yeah... and i don't know if you noticed my hesitation in replying... but see... part of me didn't want to reply... at all... not because i didn't care about you, not because i didn't feel the same... but because, i didn't feel that it was the right time... for either of us to commit...

*sigh*

but since all that is water under the bridge... i just hope you won't waste this by dicking around and simply do what you know needs to get done... and stop what you know you shouldn't be doing anymore... if you want what we have to last.

to B- ,

i hope you find your peace... stop wondering about 'what happened during that time' coz it's all in the past - done. over with. move on. let it go.

you're with someone new, and at least respect that commitment... and for cryin' out loud, stop referring to your girl as "the resident evil" !! eventhough it's funny as hell, considering the circumstances, believe me when i tell you - it is NOT an easy thing to do... to live with you... and all that living with you entails... so cut her some slack... and if you really don't see yourself with her in the future... then be a man and tell her straight... geeze.

to the bear,

you gotta make peace with and let go of your past, sweetie... it sabotages any meaningful relationship you have coz you always end up wanting to hurt first before you get hurt.... =(

tsk.

Sunday night as I was falling asleep in his arms

starbs - for consistency =)

For the Love of You - Boyz II Men (Throwback)

hey i'm a monkey too!

sumdex backpack - even weight distribution vs messenger bags

labyrinthine

meet up with my guy to buy a birthday gift for my niece after work... then dinner and sleep over at his place... seriously lacking sleep *yawn*

i use:

l'eau par kenzo

d&g light blue

bath and body works lemongrass sage

on him - i like:

clinique happy for men

polo black

bulgari aqua

dove body wash

wallet (cash, atm, cards)

phones

keys (house, office and car)

lip balm

hair tie

"may problema ba??" (duh! the fact that you have to even ask - toink!) :alien: