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I screwed up and pushed her away.

But then, she's unable to accept my flaws.

You've started to do everything for the person. I mean, everything.

"I can't live in good terms with you anymore."

All the pain. All the loss.

The Scorpions - Still Loving You

Hindi ko talaga kakayanin sa una.

Baka I'll try all my best to keep myself from seeing the fact. Cold turkey on the internet, I don't know. Whatever it takes.

I still love you so much.

I always welcome and even encourage her to read the messages on my phone. I don't have anything to hide, and it's my gesture of being transparent.

On the other end though, she's been mostly secretive and/or privy of the messages on her phone. I respect that.

Roughly an hour ago. Sadly, it will just be ignored, just like the other "I love you"'s I sent these past few days.

I cried on my bed. I cried, and cried, and cried, and cried, and cried.

Then I tried to sleep all day. Then I started taking sleeping pills.

Now I'm in the process of breaking the habit of waiting for her, to check if she's online, and to check if she has received my messages.

She has not been talking to me, and she's been ignoring me for two weeks.

At the end of the day, I just think that this is unthinkable. You know, the usual karma, and "I-don't-want-that-done-to-my-partner" thing. I'm uptight like that.

'Wag na kasing magho-hold on, para wala nang ile-let go.

- Tales from the Friendzone

Adobo, the undeclared national dish

Sinigang, most especially hipon

Of course, the quintessential Lucky Me! Pancit Canton (the chilimansi or extra hot flavors)

Pancit ni Mang Juan (adobo or sweet 'n spicy bbq)

Nissin Yakisoba (spicy chicken)

Default choice will be instant pancit canton, or any instant noodles in a cup from the convenience store. After that, coffee should be good if I plan to stay awake through the whole night, especially whenever I'm watching a late-night live sports event.

So after sometime, I finally figured for myself what the devil the fuzz is about. They really have some good donuts. J-cochino (if I got that right) comes first. The next time I'm dropping by, I'll have at least three of these in the two-dozen.

Bantayan Island, Cebu

Variety and new experiences. I've becoming sedentary yet again recently.

The best things in life are not things. These are people who love you, support you, and will never leave you alone.

You should be able to pull this off.

You don't quit your job. You quit your boss.

I've been mostly stressed with work.

Discombobulated.

To ASSUME makes an ASS out of U and ME.