mitymike

Hi there! Racal/rusi rider here! Meron na ba club dito pde salihan? Tnx

Well for me, the most hurting words that i heard recently was from my wife....

After seven year of marriage... I thought i had learned not to cry or be hurt anymore by mere quarrels...

But when finally she said to me...

"You know what? if i had'nt married you, my life would be totally different. I never dreamed of a life like this... I totally regret having married you..."

I will not delved into the details of why she said this for it would be very subjective because this will be from my point of view...

But i really broke my heart...

Hi guys!

This topic really touched me...

Currently, i have a wife and three kids... I'm 30, professional and very busy with work...

Though i can clearly state that i'm happy with my life now, there is one question that keeps hounding me...

And that would be my ex girlfriend from my late highschool and early college days...

She has been off my mind since i married 7 years ago...

But on the early part of this year, she suddenly went back into my conciousness...

Several nights was i awakened with her image... For no apparent reason, i was dreaming of her...

I can see only a face... without emotions, without any apparent movement...

This disturbed me till now... For several days i made no move, obviously i was perplexed and paralyzed with the question why was she hounding me in my sleep...

We have no communication for so long... Twelve years if i remember it right... But why? Why now?

Then, i remembered... My sister told me way back that she tried to call me up in my old house, the house that i used to live before i was married...

My sister said that she just came back from Japan, and when she arrived, i was the first people she called up...

I never knew the reason... IF ONLY i called her up to say hello... My sister told here that i was already married... she never called up again....

When i can no longer bear the pain of anxiety, i tried to find her... Or to put it exactly, at first i tried to find out her number...

I went to her cousin's place... There, i found out that her family still stays at their old house in taytay....

I found the courage to call their house... Her mother was the one who answered the phone... She said that she was already married to a japanese national, though they have no kids yet... The day that i called, her mother said that she just arrived from japan... She was not there though, they went to the beach...

After that, i never called up again... I lost her number, but i knew how to go their house....

I never did find the courage to go there though... I was afraid, of what i would feel and see....

For now i knew deep down, that i still yearned for her....

That if i see her again, that feeling may surface and i know that it would be wrong...

The big if for me was...

IF ONLY i was not married when she came back, would we be in each other's arm? If only i could turn back the hands of time...

I will bring this question for a very long time....