Carnellian

Its Over

Vertical Horizon

I'm here, wide awake again

This fear is something I call a friend

Hello again

It's been a while since I saw you here

I don't remeber you saying goodbye

No,

It doesn't matter it's over

Here I've been waiting

All my life

All this time

It doesn't matter it's over

Here I've been waiting

All my life

All this time

Here we go, jump to the stars above

So low, why do I fall to love?

Hello my love

This voice never called your name

This boy would never be the same

No,

It don't matter it's over

Here I've been waiting

All my life

All this time

It don't matter it's over

Here I've been waiting

All my life

All this time

Don't let it end up this way

Don't spend another night afraid

Don't let it end up this way

Hey-yeah

Don't matter it's over

Here I've been waiting

All my life

All this time

Don't matter it's over

Here I've been waiting

All my life

All this time

All this time

I'm here, wide awake again

The residual effects have faded. Im just same old me today.

SSDD.

There are so many reasons why I am for Divorce being legalized in our country. While I uphold that marriage is a sacred vow and should be kept intact, I also know that there are many instances where that becomes impossible.

In the past years, there was a marked increase in "teen" (and not so teen) marriages due to unplanned pregnancies. Lets face it, these people marry because their parents made them marry. At that point, they can be in no worse state of mind to marry - they are stressed over the pregnancy, unsure of what to do next, their plans have just all been turned over. Yet they are placed in that situation where they have to marry. At some point, it becomes inevitable that these marriages break down. I think these people deserve a second shot at happiness and in their case, the only way they can have the family life and marriage they deserve is through a divorce.

Likewise, I see marriage as a contract (hence the term Marriage Contract on that form). As with any contract, while it is legal and binding because both parties agreed to and signed the said contract, there should also be a "way out" of that contract when the relationship becomes untenable and impossible to maintain. This is not to say that divorce is the first and only solution to marital problems. Divorce should be the last resort. When all else has failed.

In the end though, it all comes down to one thing. The fact that marriage is not an institution to be entered into lightly. I am amazed that the seeming impossibility of getting out of a marriage in our country has not deterred those who are not ready for marriage from getting married. Ideally, marriage is forever. That is a pretty long time if you think about it. It just makes sense then, to be sure that the decision to marry has been given the amount of consideration and thought due it.

In the final analysis, yes I would bat for the legalization of Divorce in the Philippines, but only if the proper implementing guidelines are put in place so that it is not abused. Only if it the Divorce law would still protect that sanctity of marriage and not bring it down to the level of something that becomes disposable.

I go sit outside a coffee shop and I watch the world pass me by. I just sit there and spin stories in my head about the people I see. I let my mind think about the things that sadden me.

Then I head home, Get inside my room, lock it, Turn off the lights and just lie there. Until sleep claims my weary mind.

Keep my unexpected present safe.

Oh, and thank you. That was a pretty neat gift.

Thank you for unexpected gifts from unexpected people.

There is a small smile on my lips.

Whats nice about it is that a totally unexpected person put it there.

That semi bald guy I have my eye on. He is HOT.

The avatar was given to me by one of the nicer guys around here in MTC.

Thank you. For so many things. For the love that you showed me during our happier times. For standing by me when I needed you most. For caring. For making me feel pretty when I have always felt like such an ugly duckling. For the passion. For being someone I could lean on.

So much to be thankful for. And also so much to apologize for. For making you feel that you were not a priority, for being heedless and careless, for senseless words and petty fights. For losing sight of what was essential.

Which is not to say that I think I did nothing right in the time we were together. I loved. With abandon. With all my heart. I cared deeply. I forswore others.

The things you do and say now maim me. They have all but taken away my spirit. But ill hang on.

I still know in my heart ... As I know you do in yours.

Tattoed On MY Mind - D Sound

When you go home after a shopping spree and want to either throw all your purchases out the window because theyre totally senseless and/or ugly ... or you ask yourself "What was I thinking when I bought this (or that)?"

This is a lame question. Its just like asking ... will you love a PERSON if she really loves you? Massage Parlor Attendants are first and foremost, people too. There is no reason why you shouldnt love them (assuming that it is a romantic relationship we are talking about here).

If you have doubts about your feelings for them because of their work then the answer, plain and simple is you dont love them.

Very nice, cozy, discreet place.

Ill Go Wherever You May Go

The Calling

So lately, been wondering

Who will be there to take my place

When I'm gone you'll need love

To light the shadows on your face

If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all

Then between the sand and stone

Could you make it on your own

If I could, then I would

I'll go wherever you will go

Way up high or down low

I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out

A way to make it back someday

To watch you, to guide you

Through the darkest of your days

If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all

Then I hope there's someone out there

Who can bring me back to you

If I could, then I would

I'll go wherever you will go

Way up high or down low

I'll go wherever you will go

Run away with my heart

Run away with my hope

Run away with my love

I know now, just quite how

My life and love might still go on

In your heart, in your mind

I'll stay with you for all of time

If I could, then I would

I'll go wherever you will go

Way up high or down low

I'll go wherever you will go

If I could turn back time

I'll go wherever you will go

If I could make you mine

I'll go wherever you will go

I'll go wherever you will go

This is a good way to pass the time before the weekend starts.

I saw another person at work browsing it. He helped me register for an account that I finally began to use today.

No exit lines. Goodbye will do.

Nicotina is perfect for discreet tete a tetes.

I also like Antonio's. Sonia's Garden I find a bit pricey and overrated.

If the chemistry is right, its inevitable.

If there is no chemistry, a peck on the cheek will suffice.

Hands down, the best motel in town.

More discreet than any other place we have tried.

Unfaithful by Rihanna - cant get this effing song out of my head damn.

Its all in the mind. Attitude always helps.

Music.

Fashion.

Skirts. And a matching top, of course.

Nice underwear.

Perfume.