I have fallen and its a sack of confusing emotions.
A few months ago gusto ko lang naman magpa massage and happy ending. It was supposed to be a one time escapade but apparently it wasn't. Naging regular client ako nya, I assume getting her services 3 times in a month is already considered as a regular client. During the course of 1 month as a regular client, I would ask her out for a date but she would say no. I would send her gifts and give small amounts of money but still she would say no to a date.
We chatted every day and every hour. Pag hindi ako nagpaparamdam sa chat ng more than an hour nagtatampo sya. And in the course of us chatting incessantly an attachment between us grew. We were already liking each other on the second month although of course I still send her money, larger amounts at this time. When I told her I'll book for a session the night after tomorrow. This makes it our 4th and I was surprised what she told me, magdala daw ako ng CD.
Then she now agreed to go out with me. Nagpasundo sya sa malapit sa house nya. That first time to go out wasnt really a date kasi I asked kung may gusto ba sya puntahan or kainan. She said mag takeout na lang and we can check in a motel. Shempre di na ako tumanggi kahit na hindi yun ang ineexpect ko. This happened 3 times on the 2nd month and was pretty much transactional. We go out and eat lunch or dinner then check in a motel. Afterwards I hand her the money.
Since we go out almost every week I changed my offer. Instead of giving her money every time we go out I offered to give money on a regular basis instead. She thought about it and she agreed. Para masulit ko yun money I give regularly, we would go out twice a week. Going out means having dinner or lunch then check in a motel. Even with money involved, nagkakaroon na ng feelings maybe because of the frequency of our dates. It wasnt liking her anymore but I was falling for her already and I believe she had fallen also too. She said I love you to me.
On the 4th month wala ng weekly money nor even transactional payments. She would be the one asking me if im free so we can go out without any money involved and then have sex. Then it progressed to seeing her almost everyday for lunch, dinner or even just coffee. There will always be sex at least once a week, sometimes up to thrice.
The situation seems to be a feel-good story that will have a happy movie ending. Nope kasi may complications. She has a toddler child and a jowa houseband (palamunin), and I am twice her age.
I mentioned there is a sack of confusing emotions. There are feelings of happiness, jealousy, anger, inferiority, disgust, worry. These feelings are stressing me out and is affecting my mental and physical health. So I ask ano ang gagawin nyo kung ikaw ako?
to be continued...